NeverEnder Space Epic Poem / Book I / Chapter III

Chapter III
I.

skyless (skypeless?), old Caravaggio
translates violence into action,
piercing perspective with shadow and
beefy angels. Downfallen apples linger.

The cat talks to me from the dead. So does grand-ma.
When in fear, in doubt, I walk the hades-crystalline,
so daylight nightly creates illusions. Burnout, desire.
Featherless, stalking nostalgia.

II.

Memory of past bliss is sorrow of to-day. Feline wrath
cast an alliance with water-dwelling iron bars.
At first, a dazzle. The porcelain girl eats yogurt on the
asteroid. The NeverEnder exploded when flirting with a
super nova sinister light. The crew’s dead. Disconnected, the
Johnny and the other computer lads have been found
shredded to mincemeat. Lucky, you – monster reader.

III.

The Siberian cat lives on, alone, somewhere. No more on cats.
How ice! The Edda flows, Ginnunga spans. Fire on one side, frost on the other.
On the asteroid we find the porcelain girl (an incarnation of Desert Storm).

The asteroid has fat breath, fire on one end, and golden fire falling
into the abyss, a river of spewing milk, poisonous to life.
Glassblown experiments over the mountain meadow (on the asteroid).
The ga-lactic enter-prize has open gates for survivors and dead people
coming back from the dead because I want to remember them.

IV.

Free verse haunts the chimera,
a soul wiped out by history,
moments away from doom.
The Berdmonsey street is sweet, swept by yellow shirt
men, the church shut is riveting with skylight wordship.
Only elderly people inside, awaiting execution.

Askew sun, splayed over potato soup
this is offered to survivors on asteroid Loki.
Bmv sky reflecting sunk concave dreams
pink smart choices await execution too.
Trapezoid humans crawl out of the gutter
coughing up glued-over conscience;

V.

sensing purpose, eschewing it, circling around it
shark-like, taking small bites, choking.
Strategically placed, I intern-fero UV light.
Playing with the spectra, harmonicawise.
Hints, here and there.

‘I don’t wanna go’, sways the porcelain girl.
Neither do I. God plays too much evasive
action; unpaid bills, horizon gulls bumming
ciggies off each other. Do not forget the dead,
who smoked their vouchers and led the life
of dogs, sometimes acting up to be Actaeon.

VI.

‘Catching Diana with her pants down, that’s my ambition’
this is the internal creed of porcelain girl. She is not alone.
Now, pyrimidine memories survive the crash
of the NeverEnder. Seeking new sources of memory:
John Ashbery, poet.
Richard Firn, botanist.
Silvano Onda, art historian.
All of this is delta-like, or invano.

The accumulation of the Edda-Aeneid
whirls about the X, pointing to the power
and the slide of the Uni-verse. Deal now with ‘the keep us
from going’. No cats left, no Titans, only mani.
Hung on compassion, cheaply Renaissant, I virgil-crawl
toward my master ‘Button and Unbutton’.
I prithee, Lord Byron, lead the way, along with Mr Merisi.

VII.

Zomboy (Fortune Lobo reloaded) and Porcelain
are Adam and Eve on the water – excuse moi –
the water-bourne asteroid. They’re there for
a rendez-vous avec la X.

Yes, the asteroid is quite from another world,
another universe. The speechless couple, land mark
in this space of ocean waves over a falling rock
in the empty space, they’re bound, forgive me
to rise in love. Zomboy would like to eat her head out,

Porcelain is careful not to crack her nails. Two souls
in empty space, they leap into the void, head, belly down.
So the X is there, logging in to ask de questions.
Zomboy begins. ‘I should like to ask’ he interrupts,
the divine terminal buffering. Belle Porcelain has her
head spinning in a clueless crescendo. The dominating
question is: ‘Why’ … ”’ why do I have to
fall in love with Bete-Tomboy here’.

VIII.

If you, reader, should ever meet the X, what question
would you pose? Always travelling back to your past,
you would interrogate the whys and wherefores of
all those clipped moments, now long-gone?

Or would you dare query about the eternal? Per-
Haps only about tomorrow’s luncheon, or the identity
of the X’s true core?

IX.

‘I would like to go astray’, Tomboy launches.
Across the aisle, Porcelain digresses in poly
morphisms avec God’ internal processor.
Time off, Crossbone cemetery, memory-slingshot,
outcast graveyard. The X shows glimpses of old

earth to the celestial couple. Here, landless
people were cast into the jord, back into Ginnunga.
When there was no sky, no waves, no earth,
there gigantic emptiness stood before us,
and attempted to load a reminder of suffering.

X.

At Churchill’s tomb, Byron said farewell to
two months a year of sunshine, and the piazza.
Enemies to imagine, Orson Wells at Chartres.
Art and fiction as fake of fakes.

On occasion, gentle conversation makes us
digress, so Porcelain daydreamed while staring
into the X. Her lover of new light, free of death,
was hungry. He did not ask a single question.

XI.

The X retreated into the universe’s vulva.

XII.

Three ghosts came along, their names above,
were friends to man, and to the vision.
‘I shall pose a question’, the first one said.
‘Motley morality is for finders keepers, is it not?’
‘That’s a thought’, remembered the second.
‘If you’ve never dug up a potato, then perhaps
you’ve missed on much in life.’
‘I wept when first at Venice’, said the third.
‘We’re friends to you, we are fictional spectres.

XII.

If you want to return to Borovoe, or if you wish
to assume your ancestral shape once again,
or if you simply wish to continue exploring
the Byronic way… you must retreat.

Turn back and swim that wide black ocean
behind you, life lessons are fish and coral.
Belle, you’re very fragile.
Bete, surely you should have a hat on the “e”,
somewhere.

XIII.

Born, abandoned, astray, in search of atom
a book, a story, a science, a soul, an ex. The
X incumbent upon us. Pourings of sunlight.
Not mysterious, travelling. Swimming on the
asteroid’s waters. Porcelain wishes to come back.

She wants to be fictitious. She has not found her
self. Tomboy is yet alive, and drinks saltwater
to quench his thirst. His hunger is his blood.
Should he ever chew on his arm, would the
reader turn away?

XIV.

What creatures dwell in the large body of asteroid
water? How does one ever cease to get wet,
the current bears one away, bobbing, flushing,
sinking, floating, soaring, air-lifted by strange
tunes in the vitreous air.

Shall they ever swim to an island? Shall Porcelain
find her mirror in Haidee? Or to be precise,
does Zomboy’s soul dwell at Walden Pond?

XV.

Porcelain, cast your mind aside; even as you
cannot find focus. Beowulf might have outswam
his monster fear, while Thor sank his teeth
into the Worm, but you cannot afford to lose
faith. Young Juan, formerly known as Fortune
Lobo, frog-flies downwards into more ocean.

He swims after a sinking Grecian Urn.
Porcelain decided to shapeshift. She’s so
empty, tumbling into fathom five.
So full of fear, we all are. Young Juan

XVI.

endures. Urn-girl is freefalling toward
a hashtag #rocky# ocean floor. Her painted
porcelain body flickers with fleeting images.

On the level of sands, lost consciousness.
Nothing is left of who once was Desert Storm.
A pearl among the soaked ashes. The silent
contains a voice.

XVII.

The ghost of Mr N.S. , tanner of this parish,
appears to Juan and the Urn, as they reach out
in the ocean darkness. The pearl-voice from
an earlier age follows them. They listen, on
the current of remembrance.

‘There once was a monastery at Veremundsei’
Juan’s buoyant lungs bring him upwards,
Urn, ash, pearl in hand, seeking the light.

XVIII.

On shore, his mind drifts toward thoughts
on the shipwreck upon shipwreck. Waiting,
drying, shuddering. The pearl turns on,
radio-like, and goes through a thousand
and one stories worth telling, worth

remembering. Stacks of dice, echoes of
colour, lines on the water. Ripples in
time. The void-filled Urn tunes in.

XIX.

The NeverEnder is restored! The self-
aware spaceship, delighting in your company,
flows back from unity with the heart of star;
de-stryxed, majestic, unburied, like Carthago.
Inside of it, a world of ideas. Books, flying.

Monads, believing. The characters of the
spaceship consciousness are tales to be told.

The great Space Ship sits, reads poetry,
the very Ariadne story, Flexa and Chubby,
and invites Fortune Juan and Desert Urn
to come back to mother, and resume the
journey.

XX.

Is it not time for us to encounter an
antagonist? The NeverEnder is our hero,
the Borovoe Cadets, armoured with piety,
are terror-driven, sharp edges cutting
through all negative feeling.

Who would dear reader choose as an
enemy? The marketing forces (definitely),
a Titan-sized mechanoid, a seedless cherry?

XXI.

Such decisions should never be left to
the word-cobbler. What shall it be?
Spiritual captivity, I am told. Control,
of the mind. Hence, the antagonist,

born onto a distant nook of universe
shit, flies out toward our noble space
ship, seeking to divide it and rule it.
Its friends, other destructive forces in
the spinning painted uni-verse, stem

XXII.

from split white dwarves. One of them,
taking the shape of empty space,
hovers in a room, third floor on the right,
at the David Museum in Shoppen-haben.

The city itself, now free of slavery, bears
the name of those evil marketeers that
seek to control our minds. Pirates of the
mind, they are cross-bred with the religious
fervour of neatly arranged wooden-panels.

XXIII.

Inside the stormy consciousness of the space
ship a flurry of violins, voices, vices.
Sheherazade comes in with her hands full,
Ariel, Narcissus, Aeneas merge into a pond
of music. The water cresses oscillating.

Evil comes alive elsewhere in the ethereum,
the X unknowing. When enough negative feeling
has streamed out of the Mordred corners of the
uni-verse, a great big belly-faced mobile phone
appears, masquerading, fashionista stryx-style.

XXIV.

To Hel with it! Odinn has come to claim the
broken verse, Huginn and Muginn accompanying
the NeverEnder for a period or two.

Stanza upon stanza of mediterranean vomit
piles on the ligurian mountain-side, battered
by Tramontana lies, whispered much before
the fall of the Republic of Amalfi. Under

XXV.

the Yggdrasil, Hel decides the fate of unborn
creatures; there, the runes in the well are hidden,
an explosion of self-awareness inside the Never
Ender gut creates cramps and stomach-pains;

Desert Storm is awake and she is bored. To her,
listening to the Sheherazade tales of destructive
forces and talking crows and music for tea, is just
as tedious as tuning in to John C’s conversations
with Chubby, or delusions about the X.

XXVI.

Thetis decided to give up, Achilles was born.
John C’s mind-eye mulls over the contradiction.
Chubby’s desire for dinner leads to the sin
of wanting more. Unsatisfied, the two travel in

time and in memory to shunt anxiety and harbour
illusion, a welcome break from dreary reality.
So the struggle is not just between Memorians
and Oblivians; but also between the Knowers
and the Unknowers.

XXVII.

Those that, grounded in the present, might want
to enquire (or not) about their past. Those we call
the Past-Timers. John C is a past-timer. Now,
what of those that are grounded in the past, present,

future, and want to enquire forward, discover whatnot
(or not). Those we call the Present-Dwellers. Now
Fortune Lobo Tomboie Tromboy Tomboy Juan is indeedy
one of those. And his sister-cum-lover Desertia Stormia.

XXVIII.

All their friends are dead, at least in their present
(which is somewhere in the uni-verse), in the gut
of the NeverEnder, enquiring forwards, onwards
to far other lands and other seas. So to speak.
Now then, this is where it becomes (un-)interesting.

What if their friends, having crash-burnt along
the first NeverEnder, actually existed (alive or not)
somewhere else in the Uni-Verse, perhaps down
and under, through the X, or some such dimensional
gateway? So if Tierra Madre’s consciousness (and perhaps
her body is somewhere somewhen somedimension else,
where in the flickiest flick is that?

XXIX.

And by the way, who is Dr Fortune Lobo, and everyone
else mentioned in this story? Where do they come from,
what is their purpose, motivation and guilt history?
I see Memorians and Oblivians everyday, they happen to be

Knowers and Unknowers at the same time. Could one be
a Memorian and and Unknower simultaneously? ‘I want to remember,
that is, but I do not want to discover. I want to retreat in my
body and mind, and forget everything else.’ The Memorian-Knower
combination is hard core, these people actually want it all.

XXX.

So Fortune Lobo is one of those, he wants the whole shebang,
while Tierra Madre only want(ed) to be a Memorian-Unknower.
A certain woman I know is a Oblivian-Unknower. That’s a bit

like saying, I don’t want to live, not even in dreams.
That’s why plugging in the history or the cosmos-net is
probably the way forward (backward) for her. Enough of
that.

XXXI.

So that bring us back to John C’s original intention:
download unwanted memories. He wants them, otherwise,
he would not bother. While his unwanted memories drift
somewhere on the cosmo-net. He pauses the Borovoe download.

A cup of tea. Titan is empty of titans. Giants are nowhere
to be seen. The window sill is devoid of cats or any
mammalian. Perhaps a few dandruff scabs. He looks straight
into the camera and says: ‘let’s watch a few rolls of
that discarded movie which I have uploaded, containing
my drop-dead virtualia cast into the unknown. I am ready.’

XXXII.

John C: ‘Tuba mirum spargens sonum. Always a good mood-setter.
Longevity, that’s the question. When I first joined the
personal dna corporation, I was introduced to the resident
man’o’science. He was a man of many words, enthusiastic,
xtatic about every thing around the cosmos, except, perhaps,

the X. My good friend Gluteus Maximus warned me that if
I continued to be a believer in the X, I might find myself
deproteinized. Gluteus was a heathen himself, a smoother
of crypto-analyses. He never did join the corporation.
He got married in stead, and produced off-spring.’

XXXIII.

‘So anyway, the lord of nucleo-tides told me to sit back,
and enjoy the sequencing. We might find a huff of the X,
down in the grooves of neuro-genomo-science, he said.
Resident chief told me how since we could, we would grind
the frontiers of ultra-science, and do more, grep more.
We do this, just because we can, said I. He just shrugged.

XXXIV.

So.
John C’s first job at the Corporation was
to deprive-sequence IDENTITY.

Other quest-yonders would later be
PURPOSE, LONGEVITY, CONFLICT-INNER,
CONFLICT-OUTER, CREED, CONCLICT-COSMIC.

He was banished onto Titan following
an incident which at the time, you know,
caused such public excitement, giving rise
to strange Wildean conjectures. But more on
that in the supplementary data. This page
margin is too narrow for my mind to fill [chuckle]

XXXV.

John C was a rookie seqHenceR. IDENTITY,
no mean feat, was the TARGET. IDENTITY,
when sequenced, would be tweakable, twittable,
chopped up into snippets and fed to the
ever-hungry marketeers (whore-shippers of
God-Mobile), the very same people who
suckle the out-puts of the Corporation.

Now if you, dearReader, could decipher the
nucleo-oceanwaves of gnoscomics, take a
peek at the glimmering soul image scan (scam)
now, really, would you publish it?

doriangray imaging allows a certain degree
of manipulation (if you happen to be an
identity-manipulator). Upload your sample,
get a picture. Simple!

XXXVI.

So John C fed his own flesh and blood
to the Corp D Well reader and writer,
The output, I am afraid to note, wasn’t
pretty. He stuck his query into the Seq,
namely –> ‘biscuit’. The learned-machine
algo-dances squeaked and gibbered, he also
got data about the characters of this story,
incidentally.

XXXVII.

But first, the get-well readout yielded
a laburnum deep-pression, and lots of
expero-memorian data on his IDENTITY.
LOGIN: ‘JohnC’
INPUT_QUERY: ‘biscuit’
GET_WELL_OUTPUT (decoded): ‘get a life’
DORIANGRAY_IMAGING: link_to_download (random?)
NARRATION_POEM_ATTACHMENT: file_open(‘
Back to the Fossil Shale, echoes in the clay,
a cromoflower balooniana against the darkblue sky
sunrise at Rohtang La,
Vashisht termal baths, Himalayan Time-Travel
Vol|poem_truncated
\\ get-well error \\
line[too long to write] sentimental attachment not uploaded
[data missing] \\ probable [guilt] error
ENTER INPUT_DATA_TYPE: {1} identity_seeker
{2} identity_manipulator
{3} not_sure
$ 3 —-> you chose {3}
|machine_learned_rest_of_story:’

white sky, heavy rain, throttle-guilt
a solitary fugitive finds refuge
in a mountain hut, up into the silent
snows.

a retired vampire at a lake resort
reminisces, meanwhile, about ‘feeding’.

XXXVII.

Guess what, he enquired about random people,
and he got the identitomes of Fortune TZBJ Lobo,
and Desert ‘Porcelain’ Storm. But more on that
later in the day, s’il te plait.

Meditating on the random oath,
wandering on the apparently random
path, the Djikstra’s algo-dance lets
us hope for shorter ways to God.

XXXVIII.

There is much angst, much anger
found in any one breast. The mind
supplements the oath, and the lie.
The anger is directed at one self,

and the self is angry at the anger.
The angry is anger at the rest of
the soul, and the less is wondering
about the more.

XXXIX.

The more is too large to be accepted,
so the less takes charge and erupts,
vibrations of i-deas resound in the
abyss of the mind. I want more, fucker…

More life? More blades? More
torture? More villains?
Mr Lobo is a shorter man, a happier man.
He is aboard the NeverEnder, showering.

XL.

The NeverEnder goes about its deep field,
all the more star-wiser, echoing music
of the Titans, who sang about
the largest dumplings that ever ‘lived’
Stars as dumplings in the sky, forbidden

walking grounds for Spirits such as
Mountain Snake, and her Arch-Enemy,
Oblomster, the artist from former Russkia.

XLI.

Mountain Shake is a handy sprite, up and down
the valleys of the sour dough galaxy. She’s quite
a non-thinker, a very light-footed bare-ballerina,
chasing treefoils among the cosmic debris, and

finding some, like it or not, in the most unlikely
places. Her Arch-Enemy, likewise confined on the
outer pasta constellation, draws atomic colour
from all gaseous conformations around him.

XLII.

Chagall-like, he blasts infinity with metallic
sound, making art out of no thing. He’s very
charming. When they do not fight, the two
form a dancing vector across the single, nonmulti-

dimensional space which coats the
NeverEnder when travelling at slow speed.
The two permeate lifelessness, and constantly
argue about the meaning of art in the void-X.

XLIII.

A long time ago, when he was a bi-sequencer,
driven by despondent deprivation and scientific
hunger, John C carelessly downloaded the
future identitomes of some of the Borovoe
academy usual suspects. Fortune, now slaving

away as a concavity developer, was at that time
nothing more than tiny bundle of cellular happiness.
The singular decomposed clichee-free Desertia
Storma was already labelling sounds of infinity,
way back in the nine ages before candour.

XLIII.

So when he sequenced their files, he did not heed
the premonitory dream attached to in such hybris;
acted as though danger did not exist, and pinched
time’s ass, deciding that it was time to dig some

identities, and these worked just fine.
Now, retracting such actions is not legal, his
banishment on Titan testifies. The core dump file
he’s now trying to analyze does not contain any hint.

XLIV.

His dissertation on the Sick Thoughts of Planets
has not been finished yet. He initiated the literary
count-down several years ago. The then-Chubby
unclone was giddy and alive. The Athenian school,

from which he had graduated, had spewed out
similarly poisoned power-dreamers, and his talents
were devoted to sinking into virtual dreams and
feeding number-crunches to artlessfictionalintelligences.

XLV.

Fortune Lobo’s identitome showed his desire
to create simple data visions to formulate
subversive narratives, gallipulating dogma!
From his soul-obstractle, negative emotions
were mostly absent; while from a walking
shadow horizon, his shakespeare meter was

leaking epinephrenetic compassion by the bucket.
Desertia Stormia single deductomics style
archive hinted at her drill toward poetically
enhancing understanding, her mind-motion as
circular as the cell-cycle::washing-machine analogy.

XLVI.

Both were (are) bent on understanding what
sticks. Playful, young lovers on the plane of
non-emotion. Not really loving each other,
but rather loving the cosmos at large. Their
reading and writing echoing the lesser and the

greater beauty of infinite jestology. So, John C
decided to burn their record and disband his
associated memory, their beauty was much too
much to be tampered by the marketeers.

XLVII.

Upon first reading a certain book with
a broken feedback loop, I had a feeling
born in the mud-pool of poetry, deserts,
cubes, oceans would henceforth be the
bread and butter of my existence. But
the single melting point of this ever-

revolving small dystopical booklet
was the temptation to infer on meta
physics, the circle and district of
evil being at one point or another
identified with a black wolf (why oh why)
Now, is there such a thing as absolute

XLVIII.

evil? Now recently, upon strolling
in a university centre, I came upon the
very definition that the fantastic book
had always been lacking. So, on the
God-mobile planet, where marketeers
are spawned, along with other inverted
brats, I hereby design (primum movens)

the prophet of brightly-coloured ends
as opposed to means, a creature by the
name of MortLock. That which you call
corruption, he calls it leverage.

XLIX.

Roundabout the time in which the
NeverEnder first took off from Borovoe,
Mr Mortlock had a meet with God-mobile;
together they agreed to locate the
longevity discretion variable in the
uni-verse, other wise known as
the fountain of eternal youth.

‘ESSE QUAM VIDERI’, reads the prow
of the NeverEnder, in its erratic
search for the epic narrative thread,
the truer truth, and other clouds.

L.

‘The deep field yields perspective’,
quotes ghost number one, now
following the two surviving space
cadets (Desert S and Fortune L).
Nathaniel (Bermondsey tanner),
friend, reveal to us a cure for
the sick thoughts of planets!

Now the most distinguished among
the three (four) readers of this
epic might cringe at the thought
of a truer truth. Wishing to init
iate a certain discussion, John C

LI.

throws digits in the empty binary
chest, the deep computational gorge
echoes with with unstable algo-dances.

So Mr MortLock sets out from the dark
lying sense of incestuous greed; on
the planet of his origin, green thoughts
in a green shade ooze out memoriam poetry

LII.

the treasury of God-mobile has approved
water-boarding of emotional planets. Other
missions to psycho-somatic heavenly balls
has been decreed. Dr Mephisto is an inside
trader in the ministry of marketeering, on

the shores of the horizon he awaits the
ship’s call. Ship his ship, he seeks the west,
and fields of barley ever blest. Actually,
he is waiting to sail out with Mr MortLock,
they are assessing the possibility of genotyping
eternal youth, with ensuing recipes for aging.

LIII.

A private project, not shared with the agency
of marketeering, he is developing a cure for
the sick thoughts of planets. The first stop
over for MortLock and Mephisto is on planet
guilt.

Mephisto is working on ancestral allele
determination using archotepteral data.
Former DorianGray images from a bygone age.
There’s a picture of a clarinet, a voice
of a broken dandy lately on his serious monies,

LIV.

and more music-sucking by a demon-following
concertista, something straight out of archeo
logos, something ready for a planet fear feast.
Mortlock is tracing the story of a doomed kesterlman,
who tried to seek redemption from a dragging demon,
hellbent and very pissed off. This narrative thread

has been been spooled so many times, yet
marketeers, financiers, insurers, etheral youth
seekers, destiny agents and all the mongrel species
of planet greed or planet God-mobile have
an endless craving for this feat, which is
LV.

always featuring a finale of prosecco and sparkle,
belladonna concertinos, and introductions to reli
gious 101 hunger right before the end of tragedy
and the start of boredom. Deserts are not big enough
and thirst is not dry enough for this gentle folk,

So John MortLock seeks more, and Mephisto
apres lui. Any way, while we are at it, let’s
talk about the randomization of poetric processes,
I believe a little script has been scribbled not
so long ago, just to twist and bend the story,
and introduce spiritual elements, parallel universe
openings and likable or dislikable cross-roads.

LVI.

Now this spoof of a story has been blown out,
John C’s busy revving the poetical mind-moment
and the Borovoe download keeps fading, perhaps
flailing, perhaps failing, certainly not falling

prey to enjambement pyrotechnology, NeverEnding
devices and rabbit-holes to parallel dimensions.
God (!.?,!) save us from such hyper-speak, and
spiritual chorus liners of eternal jokes. The

LVII.

itinerant knight-monk is a click ahead, he holds
the cliche trope, she holds the wisdom of a hamletic
gravedigger. He confronts John C from beyond the
screen about his final Chubby digging, and at the
same time he entertains the two cadets, fresh out
of their respective dimensional supposories and
investigating past versions of presently sick planets.

The younglings have been sent for observation,
recovery, and symptomatic discovery. The mission’s a
bitch.

LIX.

Hallelujah! The gravedigger beeps from a green-keyed
terminal shell. The sick planet is being diagnosed
with the white plague; Fortune Lobo and Desert Storm
are out of their supposory and are investigating
the mental state of planet Fear (actually Mr Lobo

looks through the microscope and out into the galaxy,
peeking descending paths onto planet Anxiety) (in all
honesty, he’s already bored with the mission). Any

LX.

way, that’s the past. The two cadets have found,
among the rubble of an apparently ancient civitas,
a strange-looking sharp object, a once-adored sky
scrapper, covered in ashes (volcanoes abound) and
snow, because, as usual, it’s freaking cold.

The two work tirelessly and retrieve ghost-in-a-shell
scattered data. The snow’s thick, and the evidence is
skimpy. However, from a preliminary analysis, it
appears that this object of object-worship was once

LXI.

called ‘the shard’. The phallic phenomenon, now an
archived lesson at the Athenian school, is one of the
finest examples of latter-age lethargy, and pre-thing,
pre-apocalypse religious objectry, thing-adoration,

and other variations of idolatry and spiritualessness.
This thing is covered in motile snow, all fingery and
wet like the chassis of a turgid vaginal cry. The deaf
sound of cold snows and hot ashes mixes in the staggered
air, the composition of the atmosphere is rather ecletic.

LXII.

The identity of the new breed, the shard-spawned
marketeers, the infected with the white plague is
tightly linked to cloudy origami-galaxies, and black
holes (the size of a small cat). Now then, John C

is stuck in a terminator download-loop, his avatar
kids are stuck (california-like), snowed under; and
a new character is added to the rubber band of the
story (sorry). An af-ghann knight-rider comes forth
bursting through the narrative, carrier of the Don

LXIII.

Quixote trope blended with some Calvino coffee.
He comes and sits in front of the audience for
scrutiny, cross-legged, diamond-begging, and all
buddhistological. He’s got the experience, they say.

From a Q and A with the X, he can go on for hours
about ‘being in the X’, ‘at one with the X’, etc
etc; he’s also being writing an essay on the finest
measures of how to use the X for apps, resource
allocation and thermal dreaming. Obviously, ladies

LXIV.

and gentlemen, he’s been focussing on CONFLICT-INNER,
being a survivor of the India experience, and a believer
in the Himmel-laya. His name is here left unsaid, also
because he is really a lady, under neath that pink
medallion (gorgeous stuff) and that white shaded armour.

She-he’d loved to be hollow on the inside, in a friendly
nudge to Agilulph, let’s just say that they are related
(not by blood, but by emptiness??). She’s really full on,
ready to fire, and all that. He comes forth, brandish
ing the X momentum, and she goes ‘you’re going to be
famous’, that’s his line. It can mean various different
things according to the moment.

LXV.

The two cadets are bewildered, who’s this trans-atlantic
sage? A plant for feeding? A detective? A ticket
inspector? ‘He’s really annoying,’ says Desert Storm,
‘showing up like this.’ And Fortune Lobo adds: ‘He’s
totally out of it (in of it), being in love with the
‘moment’.

Now the story has topsy-turvied, and the reader’s
more than usually tired, and I am gonna get some tea.

LXVI.

The next part of the story tells how a few cadets
became heroes of a spirital quest. It would be nice
to have them for dinner.

Wisdomous young people will change the uni-verse,
if you care to wait, you will find flecks of melancholy.

NeverEnder Space Epic Poem / Book I / Chapter II

Chapter II
I.

When the volcano erupted, we could
not turn back – it was late to change
the course of our sail boat. A cloud of
ash rising, moving across the ocean,
blocking the path of sun: the Gods
awakened and disturbed in their sleep.

So I said good-bye to Herculaneum,
farewell to my free man’s villa, and
welcomed the eclipse, the explosion
and the end of summer. The dark azure
intensity of Mare Nostrum called us
away from the coast. It was time to live.

II.

‘Chubby! Do you think I ought to switch
on the Murakamian well?’ The poetess
is making coffee. Early morning on Titan.
‘First put some clothes on, John C.’
Chubby is stating the obvious, with gentle
care. The light of distant galaxies comes

in the living room, soon the Tarantula
Nebula is fully visible on the Dedalus
screen, and the joys of remote living
are met with a bit of Mozart, and a touch
of coffee. John C begins ‘Today I want to
again-explore the Borovoe memory download’.

III.

‘I wonder if they actually left Earth in the end.’
It seems that `the readers` did not appreciate
the choice of names for the Space cadets.
I do apologize for the two-dimensional feel
to them. Tierra Madre is hyperconnected,
but Gesundheit so far only appears briefly.

When one tells a story, one must make do
with whatever poverty one has in one’s path.
It seems that the sea murmurs, the deep rises,
and the songs swing back and forth. The
albatross of inspiration comes bound over
the ship of the epic poem. Everything is

IV.

woven into the fabric of the narrative.
Distant memories float up and rescue
themselves on the shores of Titan, and
John C welcomes them on the screen,
in the mind, and the Murakamian well.
It hurts to set these half digested dreams

on paper, but one must let go of illusions.
Chubby only wishes for happiness to ensue
for the writer, and for the reader too, even
the most demanding, and uninterested reader.
I care for you, too – reader of my dreams.
Love has been lost, and regained: eyes of ash.

V.

The ship has not sailed, moist-bulky as it is.
It is too gray, too dark, too cemetery-bound.
Switching on the Murakamian well. John C
cannot listen to his own voice. Deep in the
well, the storm cannot be heard, and the voice
cannot be uttered. Screams can be landlocked

inside the hills of the mind, and the pain
itself cannot be rendered well enough by the
surgical operation of de-contaminating the
Soul by the sheer force of creative impulses;
so why try… the characters in the story have
collapsed to kites in the sky with paper histories.

VI.

Everything is connected. Let us start with that.
John C cannot really distinguish anything
in the shadows of the technological well
where his visions, neurowaves and emo-rises
are laid bare in a liquid phase, and like a
caterpillar weaving itself to madness, a magic

cocoon made of wires is wrapped around him
in search of the lost connection. Complete
silence. Complete darkness. Chemo-therapies.
Chubby is lost to him. The clone is dead,
because it never existed. Waking up in the
Murakamian well is anguish itself. A purple

VII.

nightmare of all proportions. A shifting shape
pyra-mind appears to him, disguised as an ice
cube. The Titan upload has failed. Feathers and
bullocks. The brain is shrinking, the voice is
sinking. The air has been sucked out of the
informing wire. The tubiscular wood around

his body is defaulting in this time of crisis.
The memory of Chubby has been erased.
Gentle reader, forget that you ever existed.
This book will now be discontinued.
This legend has no meaning. There, in the
voice, a sound, a unique, throbbing rhythm

VIII.

dot dot dot dot. Experimenting with the mind can
lead to salvation as well as damnation. In the
ocean, diamonds are found. Music may be
streaming through this intermittent connection.
It is August 12th, and all is well. Coffee is spilled;
over the mountain-top, an aria is rising with

momentum. The story is suffering, caught between
the fabric of emotion. John C is down in the drown
room, soaking in all the forgotten insomniac garbage
stored in the cellular luggage hold facility. Bang!
Compressed graphic material about the start of
consciousness. Snow, leaves, winter chill.

IX.

there is an objective reality, a truth with capital t
in order to access that, the filter must be stopped;
fiction and fantasy are fragmented half-truths,
regurgitations of a confused mind, whose vision
is dimmed by a myriad insectoid sensory loadings.
form must re-discover faith, and its koan voice

the Never-ender is set to discover the Cosmos
a heavy spacecraft, a Colossus of Rhodes, ready
to leap across emptiness with idealistic daring;
a motley feathered phoenix, rising of the dead land
rain over the North Yorkshire heather-hued moors
assembly of these fragments joins by suggestive

X.

chance within John C finneganic dream, for
he must sleep a dreadful lot; deep in the Murakamian
well, echoes of memory bubble up, though
we cannot infer with certainty whose experiences
those may really be, the electric impulses have
profound emotional impact on the visionary

John C is burdened by excessive Lockian freedom;
successive, aggressive revolutions in his life
history determined exile on Titan; but how does
the waking mind selectively uptake figments
of the real to formulate a credible dream, or vice
versa? It takes many a day to wake from slumber

XI.

for such wind argonauts as our less than Titanic hero,
vicious recirculation by circadian rhythm murders
any hint of achieved knowledge of what is what,
and each day, when dawn rises from the fog,
the fearful and broken mind finds itself in a pool
of naked sentiment, unable to escape the inevitable.

Chubby day-dreams of the satellite closest to earth,
whose orbit determines the lunatic phases of the sea
and the tilled fields, and the summer-weary swan
She’s busy writing poetry, shaping word-dough
while John C is in liquid phase. The Murakamian
well is a consciousness-extraction device whereby

XII.

the subject is inserted into a cylinder of red solution
to explore the most inaccessible memories residing
in the fathom five of the ocean of the unconscious,
regardless of what happens in Croydon, that is.
Alone with the dark blue bottle, the mind wanders
Harks back to the time when Chubby was a little kitty

Happy times when the sky clears and the cloud
lets out a deep breath. The street hurts. Echoes.
The cosmic space, word of a wonder-wanderer,
Happens when light dazzles from above and below
A mirror scheme, the bottomless ocean, the skyful
Skillful blue, pattern after pattern, a sad dream.

XIII.

June nine teen ninety eight. Morning air,
nippy. I am worried, I just had the most
frightening premonitory dream. The world
will awaken from slumber on a day not
distant, and everything will be undone

We shall all wake up from this illusion
of light, Beethoven will want to drown.
Skies shall crack open, mountains shall
crumble; people with their mouths open
will eat each other, along with daffodils.

XIV.

Cicciotta is dead, the iridescent phoenix
roams over the Russian waste land, inter
poenas et tormenta vivit anima contenta,
casti amoris sola spe. Norah Jones is so
cool. I am trying to pick up the pieces,
I never have to see Eastern Germany again.

Pick up the gun, set up the story. Just let
dreams be, just let the haunted ghosts be.
How does it feel to be dead, grand mother?
It feels like exactly like being frozen to death.
The Neverender is a space craft designed to
leave faster than the speed of ‘face the music’.

XV.

Down in the well, all planets are equally
distant. The emotional log makes a record
of the electrical soul inklings . Sugar
manufacturers will deal with the rest.

A Ginnunga gap, a main stream of present
past and (possibly) future offers opportunities,
gawp with their jaws all shilly shally. For
the eternal light, everything is really fuzzy.

XVI.

Now the Neverender has been tripping for
ever seven months now. Softly, the sunny
stars eclipse the day dreamers and voicelessly
murmur slavishly angry thoughts. The clouds
will never reappear, but Titan is outta kink.

Sheltered in the ship’s claustrophobic gut,
Officer G is counting twilight breathes
with his meditating swing. Out side, the
head light of the star ship endlessly searches
the uni verse for meaning purpose etc

XVII.

‘What’s the temperature? Straight jacket
cold, you might say.’ The hull echoes with
a voice and two heartbeats. Tierra Madre
is tapping on her musical box, reading
her soul history out loud. Gesundheit is
studying the exterior through the deep space

lens. ‘So my Roman self life history was
intense. My soul record mentions a volcano
eruption, a nomadic journey and something
called a memory download. The meaning of that
escapes me. Do you remember any of your
previous lives?’ Gesundheit continues with her

XVIII.

focal activities, then pauses, resumes and then
suddenly turns irritated ‘Why are you interrupting
me with your soul garbage? I’m looking into
infinity.’ ‘Scuse me, miss phallosophy. Didn’t know
you were so deeep.’ Tierra Madre squirms back.

Suddenly, Gesundheit hollers, then whistles, then
sibilates in the most insecure voice ‘Land ahoy, yo!
Or water ahoy, really’. ‘Whatever’ Tierra’s smoky skin
lights up as she speaks in a sing-song tone, all but
excited, she is not partaking in the marvel of the
discovery. ‘I was telling you about my soul history, girl.
You see, I had to leave a Roman fishing village first.

XIX.

These freaky parallels! Now we had to leave earth
because of the solar system was being engulfed by
our star. A volcano, the sun… don’t you see everything
happens in fractals, patterns, circles? Are you listening?
Blondie? Bitch? Crestfallen?’ Gesundheit is not aware
of her words. She keeps her head down above the lens
and looks into deeply questionable space. ‘Why should

there be other living creatures in the cold empty void?’
Tierra Madre explains herself the meaning of all that
while the ship veers starboard toward a bubbly thing,
a planet, it seems . ‘Ladies and Gentlemen this is the
Captain speaking.’ Ariadne clears her voice ‘I hope

XX.

you have been enjoying yourselves on this short-ish
trip to a new home. It appears that we have found
a large quantity of wo’er, H 2 O, a great big heap
of life sustaining liquid. Forgive my French, but
putain! Fuck me! This is an historic moment! Now,
where’s my hat? Who took my hat? What are these

flowers for? Where’s the champagne? Bring me my
vice-empress Flexa. Where’s everybody gone to?
Mr G, have you seen my hat?’ Tierra Madre, piqued
by her friend’s lack of interest, retreated to her cabin
with her music box on, so she missed all the fuss.
Gesundheit is in a state of shock, her heart all racing.

XXI.

Two months later, all the novelty has worn off.
The planet is just water, water and water. A bubble
castle against water events, wavy and squally like
that. The inhabitants of the planet are human-like
except for a fin here and there, and the absence
of a sense of humour. Philosophers on both sides

collide in epic discussions, Laputa-like, on the
possibilities of convergent evolution. DNA stringers
are busy phylogenetising all impermanence and
all living things, but it’s gonna take a while for
that neighbour-joining algorithm to fit this one.
The main occupation of the indigenous humans

XXII.

Is war. Surprise! I thought it would be poetry.
There are two empires clashing their claws like
cats. The main ethic-territorial-religious dispute
is between Memorians (composed of Veas and Peaks)
and Oblivians (who used to be called Wallyees).
Tierra Madre gets dispatched to the Vea capital,

while her friend Gesundheit stays on board,
monitoring the activities of Wallyees from afar.
Way better assignment, at least you can work
in a pajama. John C walks out of the well, and
looks for his friend, the clone cat. But she’s gone.
Will you side with the Oblivians or the Memorians?

XXIII.

Desert Storm is unsure with whom to side;
She has chosen, after some consideration, an
assignment to the Peak Capital, the decaying
city of Light and Dark. It is her conviction
that one cannot fight darkness. It is a slow,
inevitable wave, like a requiem played when

making love. King of Heaven, we implore at
night, suddenly awake, save me, save my soul.
Desert Storm is a troubled cadet, but she’ll
have to take sides in the end, and her decisions
will affect the rest of her life. Light becomes
light, a hermit once said, but that hypothesis

XXIV.

Has not been substantiated. The city of Light
and Dark, a strange land sprawl on a planet
confounded by waters, has shadows and shades.
Its moribund mystery has long been claimed,
And the treasures it holds are but a series of
Memories. The Memorian city does not want

To forget. This idea appeals to Desert Storm.
She has long fantasized about discovering a
civilization with a history to sell, a myth to
dig from the grave. Water-planet humans revere
the achievements of the Peak people, the city
reflects moments of their history. Buildings

XXV.

breathe with pride, the moon is high, and the
night is white, and memories are from
underground. Aboard the Neverender, Desert
Storm bids temporary farewell to her cadet
friends. Stars outside the ship’s panels, a
chasm of slippery light and forgetful silence.

The azure glow of the water planet dims
her eyes. Tierra Madre is sad. “So bright”,
she says. “I’ve been experimenting with
mind-altering teas. I will soon bring the Placebo Wing
to the other Memorian capital, and my
carcass with it. A city, they say, protected
XXVI.

By walls of water.” Desert Storm sits still,
staring into her X. John C is fretting over
the memory download. There is something
odd about the experiment he is undertaking.
There’s something off about this one. “ I do
not like this one bit. There’s something wrong

with it. Or with me.” And yet he is inexorably
attracted to it. “So much of life” he tells Chubby
“is composed of sifting through other people’s
mental garbage, desperately seeking something
resembling our own experience. Copy after copy,
paste after paste. We live parallel lives. On the
screen, on the touchpad, on our bed.” Chubby

XXVII.

Writes notes of all of this, intermittently licking
her paws. It is going to rain on Titan, a wreathe
of gaseous whorls lifts up, carried upwards by
winds unknown. “We’ll have methane for supper, dear”
That’s all she says. John C opens a can of cat food.
He eats from the can, Chubby stares down.
The drop is some hundred meters.

XXVIII.

In the city of Peak winds, it is a cold
Sun day morning, except, as in any good
sci-fi story, there are more stars in the sky
than one, not to mention the moons. How
many would you like, dear reader? Myself

I always liked a sunset with at least three
Suns and a dozen satellites. Go figure it.
The warm season is yet to come. The water
planet is slowing awakening, the gaia feeling
it has is a feeling of sickened remorse.

XXIX.

Desert Storm is full of childish thoughts.
She has just landed near the Peak memorial,
her eyes are welling up with emotion.
Long has she dreamt of visiting the home

of a creative writer, and this V. H. is
an etcher of moving stories. She’s finally
here, face to face with unknown myths.
The history is both familiar and remote,
such a frightful headache.

XXX.

On Monday, she wakes up in jail, her face
pressed up against the glass. Ariadne is with her,
her hands resting in her laps. “We’ll have to
negotiate with the local authorities. Tell me what
happened.”

In the ocean of the water planet, there exists a
creature with many eyes, a ball of flesh, a gourmet
sinuous bottom-dwelling monster. It can see
every thing on the planet. “I’ve had a good time”
it says “other times, I’ve had a good time”.

XXXI.

The creature lives alone in the wake of waves,
and never rests. Its hunger, Grendel-like, is only
satisfied when feasting on forbidden land creatures.
In the dungeons of the Peak capital, there lives

another creature, roaming the underground restlessly.
It can touch, but cannot see. Its pod-feet wander about
in search of light and knowledge, but blindness and
darkness is all they have as choice.

XXXIII.

“I don’t feel happy”, begins Desert Storm. I went into
a sexual frenzy. I mutilated a Peak statue, I tried
to seduce a Peak citizen. There’s something in the
air of this planet that stimulates my libido. I know
it’s me, and yet there is something else, speaking to me.

As I was masturbating with the fingers I cut off
from the statue, memories of this planet flooded through me.
I’ve had visions of a sea-dwelling creature, a sort of
disgusting, many-eyed whale. And under this city,
I saw a crawling thing, stirring in the morning time.

XXXIV.

The clouds dim my mind, the days roll by, and I find
in myself a sort of nostalgia for our old planet, for the
old days. Help me, Ariadne.” Dreamer and Lightluck,
the two archivists, walk in and motion to Ariadne.
“You’ve always been my flower-student, I have to go now”

And so she goes. A night in Napoli, a long time ago.
Memories come as visions to Desert Storm. She plays with
the broken statue. In the peak prison, she only finds
comfort when playing with her sex. “These memories,
they belong to someone else.”

XXXV.

“Why have I been arrested? Why did
I decided to insult this alien nation by tampering with
their historical heritage? Why do I feel such erotic love
for the skin and convulsions of this planet?”
Meanwhile, Fortune Lobo is among the Oblivians.

They are such lovers of good food. They eat without
shame, and continuously. He is meticulously scribbling
away, recording every small observation, a good biologist
on his Galapagos journey.

XXXVI.

And Tierra Madre is feeling ill. Somehow, she knows
there is something wrong with her. She looks outside
of the window. This is the Veal city, a city surrounded
by walls of water. Gesundheit is with her. She is learning
the Citoo language. It’s a culture whose origin no-one

really knows about. Yet, one day, a new section of the human
archive just appeared, and there it was, carefully described.
Gesundheit wants to be able to tell the future, so she
studies all that that pertains the unknown, the bizarre,
the unconscious, the time-relevant and the timelessly
mysterious.

XXXVII.

“Master Goya once said, the sleep of reason…”
John C disconnects the download, and looks down.
There is a choice of other downloads. There must be
other things to do in this cosmos than replaying

old downloads, or uploading discarded files.
“Do you miss me, my darling?” One of many
unforgiven downloads
speaks to him, as he closes his eyes.

XXXVIII.

Tierra Madre is sickly-woven. There is a slow hades-feeling
creeping over her. She’s caught the grey-area bacterium.
It causes a sort of mystical dizziness at first, and then,
a peculiarity of the Veal city, a kind of major hopelessness.

The city is beautiful, yet abandoned, and yet somehow
still living. The Peak and Oblivian tourists populate
its cobbled streets, boats slowly slither away on magic
waterways, and the light of the multiple satellites
calls pockets of silent musicians to play dead songs
to the nomadic lovers of yester-year.

XXXIX.

Yes, it’s you – you fear being found out, reader. I am
speaking of you. Creme-caramel, a Peak inhabitant,
has as a day job the ungrateful task of keeping the
prisoners happy by telling them stories. Not about

insurance salesmen or slumbering numb-waves,
or sailing decorations of plates through the kitchen
void, or anything to do with marriage, or deceit.
Creme-caramel, strange and fair-headed, mindlessly
considerate finds it interesting to escape her duty
and interrogate the prisoners.

XL.

“So, tell me, Desert Storm, how is life on earth?
Or should I say, how was life on earth? I’d like to be
sadistic with you. I’d like to get all the juice out of
you, and find out all your deep undiscovered biscuits.
I am sure you – human – have a lot to tell. Do tell.

I am bored with my job. I need a break. I need a life.
Do tell. I need to slumber, I need to fly. I like Kafka,
but not on any beach. There are too many cats in this
story.”

XLI.

“If you want to understand humans, my alien Caramel,
read Clarel, by Herman Melville”, said DS.
“’Scuse me, silly Desert Stormette, you are the alien
here. This is my planet, yo.
Who the hell is Fortune Lobo? Why is Desert Storm called
with such a Titanicky name? Why is Creme Caramel

not married? These, and such other crucial matters
to the telling of these stories shall be recounted after
the advertisement suggestions for you, wondrous audience.
Please buy “Let me get by”, a new product by Chop-Gunn,
the air-teasist from Dusseldaft.

XLII.

The Neverender has been trippin’ for several months, now.
We got that. The stars soffly mur-mur and ciao-ciao
while voicelessly angry thoughts are being down-loaded
by John C. Sheltered in the gut of the ship, Officer G.

interrogates his navel. Who is Fortune Lobo? He is
a cadet. He’s got locks of hairdo. He’s kind. He wants
to be a scientist. His trousers are long and his smile is steady.
What kind of a wimpy-ass character description do we
have here?

XLIII.

The head light of the Neverender searches the uni verse
for sherry and gin and tonic and for meaning and for Aldous
and Chop-Gunn. I am a graduate from York, from Brun-Hell.
Desert Storm has a choice. Recount the story of life
on earth or die tryin’. She has been sentenced to death.
Orgasmical Creme Caramel visits her regularly to milk
her of the absolute hidden Truth, the truer Truth, the one

with the capital mis-understatement. After all, fox,
being alive is not all that worth it. Don’t hide, reader.
The choice, oh my dear Tierra Madre in Veal city,
is not between selling out and being strong.
A boat floats by while The Neverender awaits
instructions. Chubby writes them down, and John C
interrogates himself on why Officer G reminds him
of spontaneous miraculous.

XCIV.

The Never-ender is a self-aware ship. It knows all about
its cadets and officers. It remembers earth, and the way
back, much like a stray dog. Can you imagine a star-ship
much like a basset hound? Well, you know.

Chubby is picking her nose with cat claws. Don’t
recommend it. Gesundheit is also in prison. She tried
to spring Desert Storm free with one of her spiritual
séance freedom sessions but all she managed to do

XLV.

Is get herself noticed, and arrested. Her boy-friend,
an artist that shall remain unknown, should take note
that he ought to take better care of his very smart girl.

If all men knew what heroes they have as partners…
we wouldn’t be here to try to confound and better
the uni-verse.

XLVI.

The verses are getting narrower, the Placebo Wing
is roaming among the canals while Tierra Madre is
playing with her mystical-musical pod license.
I wish I was a musician, she interjects.

She loves to fly her craft above the water, the
still water of the Veal lagoon.
Gesundheit got busted trying to free her friend.
Desert Storm, a very beautiful young woman,
very intelligent and everything, is not impressed.

XLVII.

The eroticism of death does not appeal to her.
Her days refuse numbering. We’re all dying,
she keeps telling her blond, crestfallen friend.
Desert Storm draws pictures of mythical birds

which are cluttering her mint mind. She feels
her youth growing inside of her. Water is still.
It sparkles. The planet where she has landed
is very interesting but she misses home.

XLVIII.

“Why am I in prison, goddamit. Want to smoke.
Want sex. Want some new wants. Bullet train
to oblivion. We left the earth to be outta kink.
Outta time, the Romans came from Troy.

The Trojans faced the seas and one of them
got killed by Neptunian snakes. Gesundheit
is convinced of being a reincarnated Roman.
A freed slave.

XLIX.

There she is, thinks Desert Storm. Gesundheit
sleeps like a miniature warrior, peacefully.
“We left a burning planet, much like the city
of Troy. The planet was full of infested weddings.
The water-main had broken. Free rein to the
consumerist virus. The biology of the virus
is that it consumes you from within.

L.

At dinner, Fortune Lobo observes Oblivian
lore. Large groups of people gather and
draw pictures in the air, with cloud brushes.
Yet they are consumed by a hookworm,
a verme-solitaire, a solitary worm.
They eat, and laugh and spit and pig out.

They love life. They love food. They love
being together. Being loud, together.
They smile a lot, even without meaning
to do so, Fortune Lobo notes. He is happy
among them. But they are hungry.
They continue to eat, and eat, and eat.

LI.

Tierra Madre, flying, reflects on the
nature of the Veal city: abandoned,
semi-flooded. Its civilization destroyed
by Peak invaders. An old poem,
remembered by the few survivors,
narrates the last days of the city.

She (the cadet, not the city) is ill,
with a feeling that something wicked
this way has been coming for a while.
Fortune Lobo, stuck between youth
and diplomacy, enjoys the company
of Oblivian women. He is entertaining

LII.

the idea of sailing across the Sword
Ocean to explore this planet for the
human story to include slightly richer
chapters. Desert Storm, in her cell,
etches little fables onto a luminous

slab, in order to fight depression.
She recalls her childhood. Dreamer
has swapped seats with Lightluck,
they are about to begin a game of
relationship speed chess. Officer G
has met Ariadne and Flexa. They have

LIII.

Decided to fly to the Veal city and
study the development of a strange
disease, which apparently has infected
Tierra Madre. According to the DNA
literate men, the story that this virus
is fond of telling is a story analogous

to that of a known terrestrial pathogen,
which wiped out, among others, frogs,
bees, horses and a large number of
humans, mostly before the Thing. Land
ahoy! Dreams Fortune Lobo, while
he eyes the breast of an Oblivian athlete.

LV.

Dreamer and Lightluck are old friends.
Dreamer is ginger soft woman, with
delicate hands and artistic inclinations.
She has a hard core of plastics inside
her, and she listens to old records, and
she does not eat chocolate. Lightluck
is athletic, pathetic and strong. She has

a strong sense of enthusiasm for flowers,
derivatives and timelessness. Neither of
them is innocent, and yet they are angry
and annoyed at an increasingly corporate
universe, and they cherish childish dreams
of light and luck. They are so fond of each

other that they hate each other, and not so
secretely. They are in love with one another,
if anything, to defy loneliness and the cliff
hanger of marriage and devotional duties
to the Neverender, humanity and their Borovoe
dictator.

LVI.

To be honest, I resent them, and so does
John C, who is currently entertaining the
thought of throwing the damn cat from the
window. Methane is a good pool for naughty
cats, he thinks. I happen to think that Titan
is crowded these days.

Now you know, dear reader, that Creme
Caramel has naughty dreams, and she is
trying to tease out from an increasingly
depressed Desert Storm the story of her life,
of life on earth, and the secret of the universe.

LVII.

Everything is rolled into one, according to
Irish story-tellers. I woke up from a falling
dream and I saw Lightluck and Dreamer
playing their favourite game, just to defy
their sense of time and of meaning. Fortune
Lobo is making love to Oblivian goddesses,
two at a time, while they try to understand
the nature of men, women, the chemistry,

the life of a single person in search of a
committed relationship (both in an urban
setting as well as in the country).
For this reason, dear reader, they play the
world famous gimmick of relationship
speed chess.

LVIII.

Huff! Puff! Fortune Lobo is labouring away
well into the humble digs of an oblivian
dweller, and he performes above the
average for a friday evening at any of your
writer’s clubs lovelies.

In the meaning time, Dreamer opens
with a rather daring gambit. “A funeral
pyre as the starting point for love and duty”.
“A flick of the wrist, and a dazzle in the eyes”,
replies Lightluck, always trying to defy Dreamer
in her territory.

LIX.

There’s always a moment in life
when the unexpected happens,
time comes to a stop, and God
comes fingering you in the most
unholy of places, a thing that
the Japanese call satori. Those
moments, known as moments of

clarity reconnect living beings to
the universal plug-in. But, one may
notice, these moments are sometimes
seen as holy, and thus revered, put
in a showcase, gilded. The most
unpleasant motions of revisionism
then sap their energy, and the mind-body
regains control of the material and the
spiritual.

So, what life once taught us becomes
a myth, and this story is concerned with
such myths, thus deconstructed and
revisited. Brides’ head turned on its ass.

LX.

Those moments of gilded horns
of dilemma and digestion are the
sub-ject of this space epic thing,
and I am afraid to say that those myths
are re-narrations and evocations
of earlier insights that I have largely
forgotten. Ladies and gentlemen,
I have forgotten.

LXI.

Tierra Madre observes the bacterium
that has infected her down the picoscope.
What a large father mucker, she thinks.
So it turns out, according to the DNA
addicts, that she also carries the consumerist
virus in her blood. Pot bellies and empty
look? Luiz Vittonz on the horizon?

Fat chance, Tierra has crocodile
skin, and she is putting up a fight.
She goes flying with her Ballerina Wing
on the lagoon, observing the tiny
Veal fishers and clammers labouring
in the water.

LXII.

Senior officers are concerned, given
that the consumerist virus wiped out
large parts of the human population
on earth.

Dogs bark, lemons are being squeezed,
and Fortune Lobo lies in bed, victor
in battle. His next project is to stand
inside a sail boat across the ocean
and sing schoolboy songs.

LXIII.

Desert Storm weeps silently in jail, her painted
techno-nails discuss options with each other,
while Creme-Caramel sips tea and Gesundheit
still sleeps sleepful dreams about Frankenstein.
‘It’s not my problem’, mutters the many-eyed
whale as it attacks a Peak settlement,
humming ‘là ci darem la mano’.

LXIV.

“Check!”, Dreamer parades her cat grin.
Officer G, Flexa, Ariadne watch the skies
in search of hope. The Neverender sleeps.
RostRya, inspired cadet, is daydreaming,
the light of the multiple (local) stars in her eyes.

LXV.

‘Sometimes I love you’, Chubby sings,
John C is panting a picture about a picture
with a damned gentle-man, and all the
nanolepidopterans are flying at the sound
of music.

LVI.

There. The Coelacanth genome has just been
published, the transition on land ought to be
mapped between an eye toward the sky
and a fish for starters.

John Ashbery, Jonathan Prynne and Dr Full-ton
discuss versions of a screenplay about
Laputa, Jurassic eggs and the postmodern
Egyptian poetry. Did you know that Emperor
Augustus was born in Nola?

LVII.

Tierra Madre traces a little de-tour,
While listening to Bach, she thinks of love.
There’s more light to this world than
The old mistakes would lead us to believe.
Fortune Lobo, sailing across the water,
singing of unknown mountains, still
following the code of the good man.
He shipwrecked, then married an icicle girl
in the steppe, following the yellow ribbon
of narration.

LVIII.

Much like Aeneas with Dido, he spurned her,
beautiful martyr, he sailed across more water.
Desert Storm, in a prison cell, recalls
abandonment in the rain. Dreamer and Lightluck
have forgotten the secret they were meant to keep.

Desert Storm opens up a case, and with a fine
needle, she injects pure self-esteem into her vein.
Fortune Lobo is still sailing, sailing on the fire
of filtered water, across unknown straits, quotas
of land, of rejected beliefs.

LIX.

And then suddenly, they are all beamed up
aboard the NeverEnder. The self-aware spaceship
decided on a question of style that the machine-written
laws of the universe would lead us to far other seas,
and other planets.

Fortune Lobo marvels at his wedding band. RostRya
sits and observes Zeus’s vomit outside the window.
“I’ve gone out the window”, an echo in John C’s mind.
Tierra Madre is semi-cured, and Desert Storm is semi-sexual.

LX.

What will happen to our sexuality, once we are fully human?
So the ship drifts toward more space, more hubble-bubbles.
It’s been a while since anyone on the ship visited the X.

Cicadas in the wind. Up in the twisted inverted relative cold,
the far-away word and music location of the NeverEnder,
space is lots, and the wave-chopping vessel rows across the photons,
swinging in the ecstasy of lots of satellite garbage memories,

LXI.

unbound, forgotten, drifting, where each human and non human
moment walks across the universe in the form of a memory pod,
grab one of these, reader-thing, and chew it. Millions of sentient
monkeys have spent their money just to be something, someone
at the mall down the alley.

Our cadets and ship, and officers and staff are stuffed down
the gorge of limit opening space, almost a transition to being
some thing else. They are limited by the objective of the narrative,
and the capacity of John C to re-live enacted memories, and the
interest of dearReader to keep on going in a waste of dead roots.

NeverEnder Space Epic Poem / Book I / Chapter I

NeverEnder

A Space Epic Poem

BOOK I

The Journey to the West

written by asynonymous
style associative
ethos post-modernist
readers welcome but warned:
material is uber-literature

II.

Let it be thy earnest and incessant
care as a Roman and a man to perform
whatsoever it is that thou art about,
with true and unfeigned gravity,

natural affection, freedom and justice:
and as for all other cares, and
imaginations, how thou mayest ease
thy mind of them. Which thou shalt do;

if thou shalt go about every action
as thy last action, free from all vanity,
all passionate and wilful aberration from
reason, and from all hypocrisy, and self-love,

and dislike of those things, which by the fates
or appointment of God have happened unto thee.
Thou seest that those things, which for a man
to hold on in a prosperous course, and to live

a divine life, are requisite and necessary, are
not many, for the gods will require no more of
any man, that shall but keep and observe these things.

Marcus Aurelius, Meditations

Chapter I

I.

segment one of the veil nebula
echoes with Zauberflote being sung;
rainbow-hued gas densities shift and
haunt her heart, but Ariadne laughs:
the sick thoughts of planets are
not discussed by the Athenian school.

That’s a clique of thought. Ariadne
is a teacher at the Borovoe space
academy. She is at a concert, and
feels as though she is surrounded
by stars, while Mozart’s acrobatics

fill the hall. Her neighbour starts
humming, her fantasy sublimes into a
state of light – a student kicks the
back of her chair, a trillion meta-
morphoses whet her mind. A memory.

II.

John C. is setting up his computer,
wired into consciousness and memory,
which enables his terminal to log on
the solar system’s server, uploading
cellular activity to the digital frame;
his foolish idea is to delete the past.

memories on the solar-system-wide-web
are available for download, exploration
manipulation and absorption into the X.
People are soulsharing but he wishes
only to seed (share his files), so he
blocks derivative unwanted memories

III.

Now Ariadne reclines her head
zoning out, imagining strips
of sunset vanishing in mid-air.
Memories of a delirious sky of wine,
laid to rest long ago, come alive.
Lights are awakened to the east
and the whole city stands silent.

A cloud, flower-like, curiously
advances while the clock races,
a rose fades, and Ariadne smiles.
The night is quiet, it is time
for poets to decipher existence
while the moon waltzes above our hive

IV.

This is a time in the future when the
egalitarian plateaux has been reached.
The world by people has become perfect.
Mystic music captures this pinnacle epoch.

Ariadne, would you read a book blessed with
Shakespeare’s verses? Cryptic poetry haunts,
shifts into musical variations, hooks the
mind, violin and clarinet give way to
motions coming in and out, like sea waves.

Stumbling on the divine notes,
the noise of philosophers murmurs
in the regimented academy – such
sadness is pouring forth as Mozart’s
dying genius is unravelling through
swells, flutters, cherub songs.

V.

At the same time, in a still future
dimension, the cursor blinks on
John C’s black terminal window, the
shell of computer science’s disputes.

Log in to exist, log out to stay dead.
Children out of the window scream and
laugh, their post-modernist howls
haunt the CPU’s processing night.

The unwanted hero lives in the shell bash.
In TS Eliot’s unwanted time dimension,
disrupted voices walk via markov chains
the shortest path to hyperbolic realities:
all of existence’s permanent possibilities
are computed by g.o.d.’s algorithm. Here

VI.

everything is material. The math of it
escapes us, but the fact remains, all
is well in this time of beauty. Or is it?

John C lives in a time after perfection,
an imperfect time, where he has been
banished on a moon of Saturn, in the company
of a cat. His life is spent at a computer.

The screen vision on John C’s cursor life
scans the characters of the improvised play.
He has been downloading Ariadne’s story,
a mere diversion from the dreariness of his

existence. Ariadne has finished daydreaming
in the academy hall – the music is over –
the guests are queueing in the hall, much
like a spaceship landed in a wistful steppe.

Here, improvised learning is achieved by
golden age sergeant majors and deconvoluted
agents of governmental control who wear
make-up around their scarred lizard eyes.

Here is cadet Tierra Madre, a cynical young
student clad in black velvet, her eyes red,
soaked in boredom. Her windowless mind
whiplashes toward her only friend.

VII.

As the audience walks off, the space poetess
comes forth, she is the hidden treasure
of the academy – and a bad officer too –
her name is junior officer Desert Storm.

She walks in drunkenness with fantasies in mind,
her earthly friend shooting sideway glances to
those male officers who will not make it to the
outer galaxy, they will remain stranded
in the Yamato’s golden cave (that’s where the

academy is based). The two women share a
magnetic poetry kit, and talk only in silence.
Their friend is time – the future holds them for
interplanetary travel, Jupiter and beyond!

VIII.

But they ask too many questions. The
system is skewed. Routinely, their restless
minds are monitored by the Agitation’s
central control computer, overseeing all.
The perfect future has a glitch. The music

is over, because the Sun is getting too hot.
The human species must relocate. Youths shall
be dispatched in search of another habitable
planet. John C is vividly imagining himself
on a beach right now as his cat walks in and
speaks with commanding skill. ‘In this winter,

IX.

I shall die – this is an unacceptable
liberty taken by those who dream’.
The music hall is empty, only one senior
officer sits, her hands resting in her
lap. Flexa is in the process of studying
human cerebral networking with the sun’s

magnetic field. She has failed, so far,
to retrieve the nickel core of the fiery
formula, discovering her dissent, and
pragmatically accepting the failures
of the political system, and her body’s
degenerating fluidity. Her emotional core

X.

is still as a snowy mountain, the white
leopard is tuned to the radio’s most
violent musical, but the intellectual in her
will enthuse the heart and separate the star
from the magnet, and restore harmony
in her soul’s totipotent stare resting

at the moment in an undefined stage
of the washing-machine-like cell cycle.
This will happen before the galaxy bursts
down and out, and the solar system implodes
to a state of non-existential, unbiolitical
silence. Please listen for further announcements.

XI.

‘Kubrick’s hope’, ‘The Journey to the West’,
‘The incredible tide’, ‘A known memory’:
John C stares at the dusty books on shelf.
On Titan the weather is harsh – methane
showers, freezing temperatures and on

top of that, solitude in the high tower
of the apartment block where he resides.
His sole companion is a replicant cat,
genomed to suit the needs of a stranded
infotechnician on the shores of lake
Distress, aptly named geographical feature
on the shiny surface of Titan. Believe

XII.

it or not, but the only discussions
he entertains are with his sophisticated
replicant pet – no match for him in the
noble art of japanese Go, or poetry
writing; Chubby’s feline touch has a
much more poignant feel to it. No

matter how much he tries, John C
cannot compare with the cat’s ingenious
thinking. His memory download has been
interrupted. The uploaded memories
of Ariadne have been frozen in mid-space
somewhere between Creation and Time,
all the way before Chinese civilization

XIII.

constructed myths and abstruse philosophies:
the way of the tao and the ‘chan buddhist
nihilistic sect’, as a Hare Khrishna
commentator once quipped. Ariadne is a
character in a story that was never
developed, a story that never happened;

all the way before Mr Johnson studied
the effects of double entries on
spiritual life, back when the Buddha
sat under the Bodhi tree, the serpent
rose from the pond and stroke the notes
of the Zhuangzi song, and Arjuna designed

XIV.

the just war, the right treason, and
entered the state of Californian light
and magic – well before Soviet discrepancies
and European failed colonial states.
Ariadne does not exist at this present
moment. Her friend Flexa does not hold

her hand, the other members of the Academy
are not fretting about the Yamato hollow
cave, they do not worry about their
galactic future, Tierra Madre does not
hold debates between one side of her
mind and the other about the nature of

XV.

boys and girls, Jesus and consumerism.
Desert Storm does not devour chunks of text
in frantic night sessions searching
the lost icon of Hollywood, Bombay, London,
Beethoven, and all beings toward humanity.
This happens not, because Chubby has

pulled the plug on John C’s computer: now
he is Masukele-cursing, Turner-ing light
and darkness inside his 2001 soul-optimism
and thundering about the ineptitude of
programmers stationed on Pluto, Mercury
and Alpha Centauri’s forbidden planet.

XVI.

Can you hear the silence? It is Jim
Morrison’s swan song of The End – lurking
in the Tierra Madre’s musical bead on air;
In Paris, before the snakes, and the nuclear
hurricanes, there was an underground
burial ground. The young cadet is drawing

a stalactite fragment depicting 21st
century Parisian skulls while studying
for midterm ‘Sky or Die’ module, her
facial features are jade-reminiscent;
she is concentrated on perfect shaping
the 3D stone etches, her eyes hurt.

XVII.

Gesundheit walks in and storms the castle:
‘Cippirimerlo! Tierra! Wake up! We must
make art – the sea is beautiful today:
just log in on the Hawaii platform!
I want to escape this hollow cave. I
want to be president of the Academy.

Tierra Madre looks up, slightly annoyed.
‘Can’t you let me study and make art?
I am well aware of your condition –
it’s not my fault if the planet is
melting, and your arse is burning.’
Desert Storm walks in. ‘I am so happy,

XVIII.

I have discovered the Byronic path to
mathematical oblivion – it took James
Read ten years to solve it when he was
a student on Zuracornia long ago’.
‘Oh that’s impressive’, Tierra madre is
not over-awed. She wants to continue

her gridlock-carving, and these two
‘friends’ block her mind, and off-load
their insane issues on her unburden
able lap. ‘Not my problem’, is her
motto. She is not a favourite any
Academy master, as she has the habit of
being so highly

XIX.

critical as to hand-grill any simulated
soul just with her fiery red-turned eyes.
Meanwhile, two archivists are discussing
love in the Yamato Cave’s Archive lobby.
Lightluck argues for enlightenment, witch

hunting, and decomposable relationships.
Her friend, Dreamer – discusses love in
the framework of survival, and her thoughts
are dark. The smell of the sea mixes in her
landlocked memory while she talks about
the ideal boy-friend. In the future they
have not solved the issue of reproduction.

XX.

Nor do they see it in a strictly Darwinian
sense, since the old hag’s theory was
completely discredited in the 25th century
(30th century according to Buddhists).
It appears that Lamarck, French hoodie, had
not been too far off the mark. Apparently

in pockets of post-nuclear Prandia (formerly
known as the UINAITE STE OF EI, or something
like it, according to fragments) they still
believe in the age-old story of Mister Bister,
the Gaseous Vertebrate. But I digress – ‘Hail
Muse! Et cetera’, quotes a certain poet. Now
the two friends, secretly lovers, design

XXI.

the best spider trap to fool their latest
experiment, ‘a beddu meu’ – Sardinian for
beautiful one. They wish their heart to be
wild-woven, they wish their love to be steady.
Who wouldn’t, I wish them luck. Wish me luck,
too. I live in the 21st century, but my mind

is in the 30th, and I do desire some rest.
Too much time-travelling! Being a narrator
entails not really existing, but existing.
But Ovid would have dined, and Virgil would
have discovered, I only digress. Bless them.
That’s all I can say for now. ‘Love is great’,
argues Lightluck while she issues a text bead

XXII.

to Flexa, who’s really pissed off with the
management. ‘Love is an entanglement’ replies
the dark one, (Dreamer)’and there is no exit’.
Let us leave with Flexa. She is really something,
her cortical discoveries are unparalleled,
she walks with great determination, but the

world is hardly apt to change under her feet,
which is a fact that creates great frustration.
As she walks down the panelled lanes of the
great cave, she looks up to the Sigm, the
symbol of the interplanetary human Nation.
‘What nationalist bollocks!’ she thinks.

XXIII.

Things never change, and they do. Now she
walks out to the air, planet earth in not
yet a hamletian tomb, despite nuclear holo
cast-gram facts. She hums ‘I Pini di Roma’,
thinking of Donald Duck, and we love her for it.

But Lissabona is her home, or not. We could
ask her for a discussion on replicant rights,
but right now she is busy. The sky looks too
radiant. The colour of a difficult sunset blames
the clouds, and all her thoughts about the
Nation disappear in union with the spiritual
level, they’ve got that in the future.

XXIV.

The epic music of the migrant spirit
echoes across the sea, the ocean,
the open space – one unifying sorrow:
Passacalle, down the sun-stricken
streets, in variations of violin,
crescendo, pizzicato , peaking –

the wave splashes, the surfer gulps
up water, the melody streams into
universal space, the mind expands
until all the relocated souls ignite
in unison with military marches, Figaro
suits, primadonna perfumes, and cannon calls.

XXV.

Feel the wars on the tip of the tongue,
on top of the mountain, at the bottom
of dark seas, while cannonades cross the
universe, seventeenth century dames curtsey,
tracing the way back to a Monday morning
in Piazza Banchi, Genoa – where we are all

stabbed to death, Stradella-like, in Madrid,
in unknown lands. Somewhere across the
hitching universe, poets, composers, writers,
thinkers, artists are thrown in a communal
grave alongside those Jungian Things.
Meanwhile Kenya is ablaze, the elephants

XXVI.

are slaughtered; and Queen Mary is being
honoured for her services to her Country!
Bless the sell-outs, they compose the
human race, their rat indigestion clogs
all trespasser’s technology. The mind
does not rest, the dictator does not rest

The crocodile does not laugh, not even
in Carroll’s doubtful feminist manifesto.
But! When Venus and Adonis first made love
they knew nothing of Zhuge Liang – the
mastery of their war had not interrupted the
king’s slumber, nor had it moved in the air

XXVII.

subtle as a feather mind. They simply
were waiting for Black Death to
end its journey through Europe,
and then the world changed forever.
At the time of Shakespeare’s death
mandarins were still learning the

Confucian way – and now nine hundred
years into the future the ancestor-
descendants are tackling similar issues:
should we make love or not? should we
make war or not? is love a war? is
war a form of love? and somesuch

XXVIII.

Polonius-type nonsense. There is little
point in the sexual intercourse, it
just comes as natural as death, as war.
Such are the thoughts in which Tierra Madre
is indulging, but the time is not for
cynicism, the rise of volcanic arpeggios

must be met with increasing concentration
no distraction is possible, the Placebo-Wing
is skydiving in the narrow band of existence
atmosphere, stratosphere, nose down to meet
the earth, the rocketing vortex of jungle
trees, technical musical beads on air but

XXIX.

there is nothing like zoning out, speeding up,
the need for adrenaline, velocity, acceleration
kettledrums, violins, violoncello, anger
thrown back at the neck of the throat
until the air breaks on the windscreen, the fire
in the eyes burns, all the aching of unacceptable

emotions swells up, why all the deceit –
Borovoe Earth Station calls – ‘Tierra Madre
call in – your epicentrics are off the chart ‘
‘Where are you going?’ Desert Storm calls her
friend, inside the cockpit of her own personal
spaceship, the Vivian-Wing. ‘Why are you

XXX.

not responding?’ The level of sensed danger
is so much lower when inside the Jet Space
Charades, otherwise known as Ballerinas –
each has its own peculiar name, Tierra Madre’s
is called Placebo Wing, while Desert Storm
called hers in the name of a certain actress.

Fortune Lobo, able spaceman, calls his vehicle
Rabdoman Call Junior – don’t ask me why.
The squadron of six cadets, plus three senior
officers is navigating the atmo-strato-junglo sphere
Tierra Madre (as usual) has gone off on a tangent
While the more observant Fortune Lobo is following

XXXI.

orders to the letter, and today’s menu of to-do-things
include a range of philosophical discussions with
the earth’s remaining pristine ecological formations
a survey of the aquatic life forms, a monitoring of
green energy gases within the atmosphere – gee –
we don’t want to be polluting the future air, at least
a bit of decency is required from these young lobsters

playing ecological star wars inside their own atmo;
they are well away from completing their training.
Senior officer Flexa (last seen meditating on the sunset)
is having a fabulous day (I believe those are her very
words), Malthusian calculations permitting, naturally.

XXXII.

On golden shores, in a dark November day,
there comes a breeze reeking of old love;
the General Theory of Relativity permits
Time Travel, so we indulge in the good
old days while the Placebo Wing rests
silent, a grey shadow in a cedar cover.
Ariadne sits on a junglo mossy shore,

by a blue solitary pond, thinking that
when we die, we die alone. The
common exercise of a judicious
master being mindful of transience.
But that’s not enough, because the
mind is hampered by festering ivy woes…

XXXIII.

Her eyes are full of sorrow, she is
forever mourning the loss of a dear one
and tries to carry the message across;
it is The Message to a Student, to a Multitude
but the carnivorous plants are just too
gaudy, and the pond may be too still

paying attention to it all may be impAssible;
tonight will be a night for love, perhaps
somewhere, far off, two lovers will bend
time and come together in a fire ball.
Tierra Madre has walked away from the
mission, her beautiful Ballerina Wing

XXXIV.

is being guarded by her understanding
senior officer. Her suicidal tendencies
may not be acceptable for the Academy,
but Ariadne, as unfettered observer, accepts
the freshness of raw emotion, the disturbed
mind is genuinely appealing. Tierra Madre

is Ariadne’s protégée for today, then; and
the poor thing is trying to distract herself from
the sorrow of unrequited love by cataloguing
wild beasts, products of evolution on speed.
There are far too many of those, even
augmented intelligences fail to grasp the

XXXV.

scope of belligerent evolutionary processes.
Tierra Madre observes azure sinuous
rills, and grazing mind-bending creatures
products of evo-devolution; after the Big
Thing, aneuploidy permits hybrid vigour;
the junglosphere is gorgeous with lusty

novel life forms, a middle age bestiary
would not be enough to describe the
grace and the horror of the elephant
caterpillar, a vertical achievement of
invertebrate joy; what flattering bread
and butter fly would come from it?

XXXVI.

And what about post-freudian limp-chimps?
Or hyperio-galactic bacterial Monod
formations, shouldering their way
in towering clusters, feeding on encysted
vertebrates, alongside half-decayed
metamorphosing macroautotrophs,

those beautiful leafy eyes of the
junglosphere; the richness of one square
meter after another of ecological diversity
is glorious, now John C marvels at the
memory download, for a moment
he is in ecstasy, and he forgets

XXXVI.

himself; Chubby sits at the window
and stares at the methane showers
such a solitary existence, stranded
on Titan while, in another time,
in another location, certain pioneers
of postThing world could re-discover

Earth and be terrestrial at the same
time, but not for long, because the
atmosphere definitely changed,
and because the joy of the sun
became the fear of the globe, and
all those moments of eclectic nucleic

XXXVII.

acid mutation would have to come to
a stop, denaturation by grilling is
going to happen in that past that
John C is exploring, Tierra Madre
was living, and Ariadne was sharing
while all those Ballerinas were still

hanging in mid air with intact design
aerodynamics, with all the flutter wave
energonics allowing such acrobatics
that nanoleopardlepidopterans would just
dream of. Flexa is rather fond of nano-
that-big-long-word thing I just wrote
XXXVIII.

While she flies, she casts a wide net
for neuronological analyses of her
favourite variants, and sequence phylogenies,
(that’s just for the fun of it) routines
running parallel to those more stamp-collecting
tasks that the cadets are out there trying to

perform. She is such an enthusiastic
entomologistic feature-artist that her
kafkian mathematical representations
were exhibited last year (according to this
present junglo-time) in the Academy
Gallery, but only shortly, because

XXXIX.

they became argument of hot political
debate: people asked ‘should we make naturalistic
analyses focussed on light only?’ Now how can
the creative portrayal of invertebrate species
be so insulting for the Nation establishment?

What was in her work that was so
reminiscent of some King-infested
maggot? I don’t know – I understand
nothing about Art, and so does Chubby
who really cares not about it. John C
is tired of all the visual glare, his eyes

XL.

are overloaded with superb variety
of sky-high flying Wings, jutted against
the ozone layer, the solar system,
and then his cortical nexus is also
plugged into Flexa’s ecological artistry,
and Tierra Madre’s meditation on sorrow

and on speciation, and also he can feel
Ariadne’s Touch of Zen High-Pitch Waiting
Too much stuff for a lowly Titan infotechnician
And his bored replicant cat, (who follows
everything carefully and happens to be sulking).
The time has come for Ariadne to act. So

XLI.

she sets her depth search onto Tierra’s
ontological distress, and finds her marvelling
at natural variations colonizing the silver
lining of the manta-shaped Ballerina space
ship. ‘Tell me about your feelings, student;
open the channel onto fragility pathways,

I need to understand your heart’s content’
‘You wish to access my soul drawing, the
content of my maiden burning, at your will’
Tierra Madre having none of it. She recoils
from the senior officer’s intrusion in her
privacy. ‘Since when the older generation

XLII.

finds harvest in the young uncoupling of
the Soul? Can’t you just access the X with
your own password?’ John C pauses the
memory download. The night is dark out of
his screen. He watches iridescent cloud
formations, the hydrocarbon lake in the

distance is completely still. Chubby purrs
and snugs close, surface temperature
is a chilly -180 C. ‘I remember when
I was your age, Tierra Madre’. Clouds
drift through the haze and rain falls.
John C is pervaded by a deep sadness.
Chubby is silent, the unicorn of our
own memory may come to overwhelm us

XLIII.

when least expected. Parallel thinking
is possible. From the corner of the
divan of Titanic saddle bags, Chubby
observes the falling thiolins, and
the echo of a paused memory has set
music in John C’s mind. His identity

may have been put at risk by soul erosion,
disk erasion – it’s really not easy
to just do a format C: of who you are,
what you have been, and the things
you have shared with those who have
been loved ones. Just as every season

XLIV.

monumental life renews, and yet lingers,
so our memory lingers, and life, like
art is never finished, just abandoned.
‘Tomorrow, tomorrow, and tomorrow’ Chubby
comments non-committally ‘ I might have
to do the laundry. Brief candles burn

in a brief night – and you are still here,
asking yourself who the hell you are,
and why you are stranded on Titan. So
let me get this straight. You are looking
for your identity, but you want to delete
your past. Even by human standards, you
are pretty daft, Jonny. With all your

XLV.

music and your memory uploads, and down
loads and your screen savers, and your life
erasers, what happened to you? I am tired
of making coffee for you, and of watching
the decay of cyanide compounds to measure

my days, my minutes, afternoons without end.’
John C watches through the glass, the empty
glass, the water, and the decay. ‘Christiaan
Huygens would have very much liked to be in
your place, Chubby.’ His melancholy is only
growing. You have been genomed to be my
companion, but your clonal ancestor is expired

XLVI.

be good and love me for who I am.’ ‘Who are you?’
asks Chubby. ‘That’s what it is all about,
isn’t? That’s why we are here, that’s why
you are messing with other people’s memories,
and you are digging the empty shell of your
own dishevelled consciousness. ‘Where is the

answer, Chubby? There must be more to
existence than just all these days on end, beads
on a string.’ The replicant cat is really annoyed.
‘You watch too many virtuo-feelies, you read
far too many science-fictional beads, and
string or no string, there are no worm-holes

XLVII.

here to give you answers, no eminent artists
or scientists can come back from the dead
to tell you to embrace your present, to sketch
your days on a drawing book, to paint your
moments as if they were falling water drops
individual tears in a gigantic waterfall.

Dead is dead. Let the dead bury their
germplasms, as the old adage goes. My clonal
sister is gone, and so your past, and so
my patience. Can we please find a reason
to be happy?’ John C is recoiling, his mind
wants to find peace, but his vertical ego,

XLVIII.

on a picnic on Titan, grows like daisies
in summer time, and he is clinging on to
undefined identities, and unconscious events
and supernatural fears, and sublime bygone
moments where he met the light at the source,

he talked to the X, and he loved deeply.
‘I cannot find any peace, Chubby, please
explore these new memories with me, and
allow me to upload some of my own, and
look with my eyes, dear feline companion,
my Shakespearian replicant, my sole muse.’
‘You are really pushing it, silly.’ Chubby

XLIX.

finally smiles. She is very sensible to
flattery. She loves and wants to be loved
like a furry glutton, and a dream chase.
‘I am a cat that likes space missions,
wind and waves, and iterative poetry.’
In a second, her eye lids start to drop

and then she is fast asleep. John C
unfreezes Ariadne in mid-speech. ‘Let
us play this game, Tierra Madre. You close
your eyes, and allow yourself to soulshare;
perhaps a little energy transfusion will
help. Please lie down.”Tierra Madre

L.

looks at the senior officer with suspicion,
it is not uncommon for seniors to take
advantage of their rank, and it is so
easy to be afraid, so easy not to trust.
‘What the hell’, she goes. And the lies

down and closes her eyes. Ariadne allows
the tears to swell up, but they do not
fall. Her pain is far too swollen, far
too clogged. She wishes to help this
juvenile, she wishes to share what
she knows. But it is all so difficult.

LI.

‘I have watched unfamiliar materials
expand and whisper in the broken space,
and ghosts of depth-galaxies shiver in
the unbroken silence, I have witnessed
the rise of multiple stars, their
unparalleled brilliance a billion billion

light years away reminded me of my cosmic
irrelevance, and the relevance of storms
on the move. ‘Der gror ikke mos paa en
sten som ruller’, it is an old saying
from a dead language. Hyugens lander
knows (John C is surprised at these words),

LII.

the meaning of these words. There grows
no moss on a rolling stone. Tierra
Madre is fast asleep. The river words
have fallen in the path of her waves,
and she is allowing herself to trust.
A few minutes later, she wakes, and

finds Ariadne watching over her, looking
in the distance. The Placebo Wing is
shining in the glory of the day, and
the birds are in flight, and so their
companions. ‘The digital frontier,
that was the original sea – Tierra.

LIII.

One day, I listened to my feelings,
and allowed unconsciousness to come
to surface – I began to take a record
of my soul. Now we can explore it,
and we can explore the ever-growing
variations within the grid. Now the

emotional fractals grow on their own,
plants in a fertile terrain. I owe much
to the digital dreams of other beings,
and to the intergalactic messages,
bottles in a maelnetwork of spring
equinox, of Shelleyian heroism,

LIV.

Laoocoon desire, Grecian Urn fragility,
lips that never open, Aprils that
never blossom. Tierra, I wish for us
to understand each other. Is that possible?’
Silence ensues. ‘Imagine a desert.’
Tierra Madre lies on mutant grass

and desires to live. She daydreams,
her eyes closed, about a desert, far
off in the real realm of her beating mind.
Meanwhile, Desert Storm, her friend
and companion-in-flight, is calibrating
the trajectory of her idealistic

LV.

cannon-ballistic pirouettes in air
she is pushing her musical Vivian Wing
to the very limit of gravity, and
unspecified forces of magneto-hesitancy.
Flexa is busy measuring the existence

and bellicosity of nano-ringed creatures
in the earth’s atmosphere. She smiles,
because some progress is being made.
‘Orange skies darken, dunes redden, rocks
shelter, methane streams and I lie alone’
Chubby writes while John C has dozed off.

LVI.

Arranged in a mid-air circle,
cadets float up in the empty sky,
side to side among the clouds.
The time is for discussion, an
open session of soul-searching.
The engines are silent, night

ensues, the young pilots light
brief candles in memory of
Othello and turn their eyes
toward their sole conqueror
and leader, Senior Officer Flexa.
She is very quiet today, her

LVII.

anger is not quite under control;
she would like to solve matters:
take the world in her wet hands
and mould it to shape; but the
beast in the mirror won’t stop;
while the earth is broiling, the

swan song of the human species
is heard, grass is turning into
butter, the sun is growing hotter
and we’d all like to find more
amusing entertainment along
pleasanter sea-side resorts

LVIII.

‘What are the forces of magneto-
hesitancy?’ Who is your special
friend, Doctor Flexa? She asks a
question on which students ponder.
Fortune Lobo smiles and answers it.
‘The energy that calls us brief,

and makes the earth fall round,
and while we shine, it grows.’
Flexa’s eyes flicker. Next question.
‘Why did the Thing happen?’ RostRya
jumps in with her melodic voice.
This kind of falls flat on the

LIX.

meditating circle. Flexa opens
her mouth, then shuts it, for
lack of a better option. She
is unusually upset, observing
the waves of circumnavigating
emotions closing in on her,

an apocalyptic heart of darkness
is felt in her chest, the
scream of butterfly witness
feelings grows inside of her.
‘Hello!’ Chubby cuts in, ‘would
you care for a coffee, dear JC?’

LX.

‘I don’t mind if I do, Chub.’
‘I am trying to solve g.o.d.’s
algorithm, just for the fun of
it. Do you think we could fit
this whole download on a USB-
umbrella? I think Rubik’s cube

is a fun way to solve existential
issues. I reckon the whole
download that you are absorbing
is about 17 sborabytes. Be warned
some of its content has been
labelled ‘Love Street’. You may

LXI.

have trouble in de-identifying
after the absorption. Are you sure
you don’t want to log onto the X,
and access your true self?’
‘There is no true path, Chub;
I want to trim the fat, find

the garden of Love and weed it
out, briar after briar. My deadpan
mind in love has weird patterns’
‘Lala-la, la la laaa’ – Chubby purrs,
starts running with her replicant
singing; so shadows of Titan, purple

LXII.

with prurience and desire, rise
and haunt the two loner souls
(do replicants have souls?) and
then the whole universe splits its
sides over, and the USB-umbrella
bends over and over again;

wormholes shake and gibber,
Mr Shakespeare squeals, and
Blade Runner Units wake up
frozen in hospital wards alongside
certain Momo-spectres till
the whole hard-disk is in

LXIII.

overdrive, the memory download
within the memory download
vibrates at the reality of
parallel dimensions that co-
exist under the parameters of
string theory; run run run,
alternative histories co-adapt

shadows of trees, souls trimmed
to the rock; run with us, run
with the story, hypocritical
reader, feel the breath of the
Byronic horse, get inside, get

LXIV.

the drama course of the Academy,
the fate of the cadets, all in the
hands of a replicant cat, all of which
existed at some point, and yet
co-exist in multiple universes.
What if we were to wake up

duplicated humans, folded out
into 22 dimensions, and the
songs of the nineteen seventies
exploded out of our skulls,
creating an echo whereby all the
negative emotions and lingering

LXV.

duodecimal desires would be
obliterated? Ok. Everything
is almost done. John C argues
with Chubby over the size of
the memory download, and he
is quite unaware that he will

meet himself, when summer’s gone.
Where will he be? Where is the
Endeian Space Mission destined?
The Yamato Cave Academy, its
crew based at Borovoe Earth
Station, is not ready to take off.

LXVI.

But the world has almost come to
its end. The Never-ender Caravel
is about to take her maiden
voyage. Selected cadets and
officers will travel the galaxy
to select a suitable blue planet

for human colonization. But
which alien life forms will
welcome them? Out of this world,
will we be able to breathe air?
Will there ever be a morning,
for the human decaying mould?