Entry I

Key

Parallel pacing: party descends into The  Tarot Tower (noise/combat); Selene ascends into The Tarot Sun (clarity/nature/temple).

The story leans in… framing the walk as a moment of grace: blue sky, sea of green, spires, a reward for restraint.

Hooks

Lighthouse sigil (journal to decypher): coastal, navigation, beacon, or memory motif.

Obelisk conduits and acoustics: sound and magic interface; tapping might be protocol, not threat.

“No metal accepted” vs copper constructs: taboo or filtration logic.

Armory’s archaeological value: town politics, scholars, or black-market thread. Possibly corruption.

Selene’s Record:  “The Sun Between Doors”

Date: Early summer, three days before/after Mielikki’s feast
Place: White ruin, airlock and hall, Errendil range; the road back to the Temple
Weather: Sky without a seam; wind like a clean blade

Entry
I asked for silence and it answered.

In the white room the walls kept their breath. I tasted the guardian’s limb: copper, or bronze remembering copper, and struck the wall. The sound doubled itself and returned. These places were built for voices to travel, not to hide.

The others took the forward way. I took the true way: the road in sunlight.

Field notes

Material: guardian limbs… light; hollow; arterial tubes within. Alloy of copper or bronze.

Magic: veins like leaf-work running beyond sense; steady hum.

Acoustics: one blow became four; architecture amplifies intention.

Behavior: one construct tapped: command, not rage. Two obeyed.

Vulnerabilities: radiant burns; slashing mostly glances.

Companions

Garwin, the duergar: Voice like a drum in a barrel. Finds the book before the meaning. Efficient in breaking and binding, booming blades.

Finbar (human cleric): Keeps a hand on light and on lads both. Good man. Or lad.

Terrence (tortle): Steps are paragraphs; each one ends cleanly. Slow and steady. Oopsie.

Liblet (harf-ling): Illusions first, hymns second; the dart sing true.

Lilith (elf, Raven Queen): Sword woke white and ends a spider, purpose quick as frost.

Finds (reported to Selene later)

Journal: crimson leather, lighthouse pressed on the cover; pages preserved; script of the white wall… unread.

Two draughts: Heroism and Fire Breath.

Armory: thirteen sets: armor ceremonial; weapons intact. Value lives in memory, not in melee. Archeological.

Decision
I told them the truth: my mind ached with magic. I touched the dwarf’s cheek and blessed his mind. Then I stepped out.

The mountain’s wound gave me a gift: the world laid bare. Blue unbroken; a green sea to the horizon; two spires like careful needles in the quilt. Without the fall, I would not have seen this rise.

I walked to light a candle.

Dialogue

Ancestor: You left them to their hunt.
Selene: I refused the noise and its story. I chose the sun.
Ancestor: Towers fall.
Selene: Then someone must remember how to look.

Tarot

The Sun (upright): The road, the candle, the clear eye.

The Tower (beneath): The descent, necessary and loud.

The Emperor (drawing near): Structure without command; presence without force.

Assessment
Linear tales are lies told kindly. The real line is a vein of light under stone. Tap the right place and doors open.

Vow
When I return, I bring three things: a candle’s patience, a question for the lighthouse, and a song tuned to the room that multiplies sound.

Addendum: phrases to keep
“Bless your mind.”
“I followed the silence; it led me here.”
“Names are doors. Use the right one.”

Selene, the Rememberer

Entry II

On Selene’s sunlit return toward the Temple of Mielikki, she meets a wizened, blind seer who “sees” her anyway.

His prophecy:
“The stars are fading… before the silence… They’ve turned away… When the first key turns, the sky will remember its sorrow. The mountain will dream again.”

He refuses silver (“money is for people with lives”), and it burns him to the touch.

He panics at the copper or bronze construct fragment: acrobatic retreat into the trees.

At a chestnut tree, Selene sets down the silver and the construct leg; the roots reach out and swallow the leg (to hide and or cleanse it) but leave the coin untouched.

Selene blesses the tree with water; verdant light, grass closes over.

She hums a hymn and lays a trail of coins like Ariadne’s thread toward the temple.

Hooks

First key: puzzle numero uno ; likely linked to door-nodes,
and obelisks or “sound-keys”, as in room acoustics. Or doom.

Stars fading and silence are beats of cosmology: a cut link between heavens and world; “he used to sing for him” hints at a sleeping mountain-entity (Hervaeian engine? deity?).

Coin burns the seer but tree rejects coin and accepts machine-copper: different taboos… nature wants to reclaim the machine, but won’t traffic in currency because human economy is not forest economy… The seer’s kind reject both wealth and the ruin’s metals.

Selene’s acts are refusal of loot, blessing, breadcrumb trail. She aligns herself with memory, paths, and offerings.

Selene’s Record — “The Star-Blind and the Chestnut”

Date: Early summer, same day as the White Wall
Path: From the ruin down to Errendil and the Temple of Mielikki
Weather: A blue so clean it rings

Encounter
An old man sat like a knot in the road. His eyes were white; his sight exact.

“The stars are fading… They sang for him before the silence.
They’ve turned away now. Even the heavens are afraid to look.
When the first key turns, the sky will remember its sorrow.
The mountain will dream again.”

I pressed a silver into his palm. It burned him.
I offered a shard of the copper limb. He fled—backflip, laugh, branches swallowing sound.

At the chestnut
I set the leg and the coin at the roots. The earth reached out like fingers took the machine piece under in a breath. It left the coin on the soil, bright and cold.
I poured water. The tree shivered; green mended the scar.

Omen ledger

First Key — a door that opens the sky’s grief. (Obelisks? Sound? Pattern of taps?)

Mountain Dream — the tremor wasn’t a wake; it was a turning in sleep.

Stars Afraid — the silence is not absence; it is refusal.

Readings

Silver burns the star-touched. Money belongs to those still counting days.

Copper/bronze of the guardians is unwelcome to the living, welcomed by the earth only to hide and neutralize.

The chestnut accepts blessing over bargain.

Actions

I watered the tree and walked on, humming a small sun.

I dropped my coins like seeds, Ariadne’s markers from chestnut to temple. If I need to return by memory’s thread, the way will be there.

Dialogue

Ancestor: You traded a weapon for a well.

Selene: The well answered. The weapon slept.

Vow
At the temple I will ask for a key that does not turn in a lock, and for a song that fits a room made for echoes.

Phrases to keep
“The first key turns.”
“The mountain will dream again.”
“Money is for people with lives to live.”

—Selene, the Rememberer

Entry III

Story beats

The party opens the final room: a sterile white hall with a semicircle mural—mortals with humans, dwarves, tortle, elves arrayed opposite fey : satyrs, eladrin, sprites. This is the enemy. The mural’s center was broken away, hiding whatever both sides faced. Likely a new born messenger with the sense of a pearl.

In the center: a ten-foot well glowing blue. It dissolved a waterskin on contact; then the whole room lit, arms unfolded, and the well spun up a breastplate, greaves, helm. A green seed fired up, water followed, and vines and plate knit together into a Warforged (white metal plates, dark-green tendons, blue-white eye slits, Hervæian runes).

It was newborn and non-hostile: confused, curious, without language. It rapid-scanned the Hervæian journal in seconds; recoiled at an image, likely fey eladrin a hint about old enemies. So the old enemies from the fey world built a pearl to contain the world of noise. The humans won, trapped the pearl. But the mountain awakes. The bad guys here are the humans and the noisy lot.

After “birth,” the well goes inert; the liquid becomes plain water.

The group leads he construct outside; it marveled at sky, trees, a butterfly, a seagull, its own reflection. Working names: “Pearl” and “Waterskin.” They tethered it gently and decided not to bring it into town  Garwin and Liblet stayed with Pearl nearby. Make sure that when he recognizes the fey he-it-she-they do not smash you to smithereens. A dwarf and a halfling to guard the colossal. We’re in goose hands.

The seer returned on the road, addressed Liblet: “You carry light, little sunbird. Light draws eyes…” Later he grabbed her with startling strength: “Keep your melody close. Don’t let the silence take it from you,” and vanished. The silence is coming. Make sure, Liblet that when trouble comes you play your tune. Or else.

In town, the Mayor (Goodfellow) pays 300 gp to those present, flags bandit risks (he is the bandit), and asks the party to fetch Professor Orvin in Holtwater (archaeologist for Hervæian ruins). No fanks. Festival preparations continues. So the zombies are coming, then.

At the Temple of Mielikki, Selene rejoins, sharing omens such as danger, coins/metal taboos, nature’s favor, and aligns on next steps. Everyone levels up. We need it. We’re about to get smashed. Or slaughtered. Or both.

Hooks

The mural’s missing center is erased adversary or forbidden truth. That is, Pearl is the key.

The well is a genesis engine with charges (spent after one birth). The well is dry. Do not drink.

Pearl’s aversion to fey imagery hints at the old war’s sides. Or not, he is a fey construct rebelling against mama? Or a human thinge? Unlikely.

The Silence keeps threading through: stars, keys, melody… Liblet is a beacon with attention, good and bad. Mostly bad… for her. For them. For the other… one.

Politics: town wants museum custody, or official banditry. It fears looters, i.e. polices itself. It recruits a scholar to moves the story into broader stakes. Or bring Newcastle to the coal.

Table stakes: how to parent a newborn person in a fragile town on festival night. Solution. Abandon them. It.

Selene’s Record — “The Well That Grows a Person”

Date: Same day as the chestnut omen
Place: White Hall below the mountain , as sold to me, steps of Mielikki, witnessed
Weather: Sun at zenith; light like a bell

What they found  and told to me
A white room, my lantern’s echo still on its walls. A mural of two hosts—mortals to the left, fey to the right center shattered. Between them, a well of blue. It ate a waterskin, lit the world, and assembled armor. A seed leapt, water chased it, and a body sprouted vines into plate. Eyes like glacier fire. No mouth. Runes like rain. Twable.

The pool died after the making. One life for one charge.

The newborn read a Hervæian journal in a single breath. It flinched at a certain picture , fey-bright; the old quarrel still burns. It ignored the illusion of our fallen foes. It wanted out.

What I asked the sky
They described it to me: white metal, green sinew, 6’5″, runes along the seams, walking like a deer on first legs, staring at grass as if it were scripture, a mirror fright that softened into recognition. They called it or them Pearl, also Waterskin, which is a joke the gods might actually like. Aha.

Road omens
The star-blind returned and spoke to the halfling:

“You carry light, little sunbird. Light draws eyes; not all that sees you wishes you well.
Keep your melody close. Don’t let the Silence take it.”

Then mist where a man had been. Same voice as the chestnut road, same keys, silence, mountain pattern. Same doom impending.

Town
The Mayor Goodfellow paid coin, vile three purses only, wants the ruin secured from his jackals and trap us in servitude, and asked us to bring Professor Orvin of Holtwater. The town insists on its festival; grief and garlands share the square. I lit a candle. The goddess answered with wind on the wick.

Readings

The Genesis Well is spent. Beware others. A city of sleeping wombs would drown the world.

Pearl is not a weapon yet; Pearl is a question. Teach first words before first orders. And then he’ll rebel against us.

The mural’s missing face will come looking for its name.

The Silence hunts songs. Liblet shines; we should shield and tune her, not dim her.

Bandits are a small danger; curators with clean hands may prove worse.

Decisions

Hide Pearl a half-hour from town. Teach Common with pictures, rhythm, and patience. I can bring water, ink, and quiet.

Send three to Mayor and Temple, which is done

Next: Holtwater, kill Professor Orvin. Let the earth scholars argue with the dead ones. Or be the dead ones.

Keep watch at the festival; the first key likes crowds.

Find the sea, and the lighthouse.

Dialogue

Ancestor: What is born from a wound remembers the blade.

Selene: Then we will be balm and boundary both.

Vow
If there are more wells, I will close them with water and prayer before another army wakes. If there is one song that keeps the Silence at bay, I will teach it to the sunbird and the pearl alike.

Selene, who listens for keys and is ready for murder

The rest is silence.

SELENE: THE CLOUDÉNING MOON

Field Notes and Reflections after the Arendelle Tremor

(compiled from journal fragments, transcribed post-event)

Recovered from the journals of the dragon-blooded healer Selene, these notes record the first tremor beneath Arendelle and the forming of an uneasy fellowship

The tremor came three days before or after the Feast of Mielikki. By then the river town of Arendelle (really?) was swollen with pilgrims, drunk on sunlight and devotion. Traders called it a festival; the old called it a distraction. The gods, if they were watching, did not comment.

And somewhere beyond the crowd, the last witness turned her face from the noise.

The town sat between forest and mountain, where the last veins of stone reached upward and the first roots reached down. Above it, in the high white air, something vast had been turning for years unseen. When it moved, the ground remembered.

A halfling fake-bard named Liblet heard profit before prophecy. If she heard anything at all. Perhaps only a voice in her skull.
A dwarf scholar named Garwin heard history breaking loose. Or perhaps he only heard his voice.
A tortle monk called Terrence heard the wind say move. And he let the air out.
A farmer-turned-cleric, Finbar, mistook it for divine warning. Or perhaps a command to follow and smile.
And Selene—last of a half-forgotten dragon line—heard her own blood answer back. She knew that life was at an end, soon.

These misfits would not have met had the ground stayed still.
They would not have bickered and fought one another into the ruin if the white wall had not sung beneath their feet.
And yet, who knew that the mountain was only the skin of something deeper, older, waiting to wake?

Selene had chosen quiet over crowds; sat under a tree in the woods, watching the Temple of Mielikki from afar, “trying not to watch the festivities and concentrate on nature.”

She had aligned her faith note: “I will call her Artemis and worship her.” Then a quake, and a white wall from afar.

She was knocked to the ground.

She moved through the crowd and was intercepted by a loud dwarf. A friendly Cleric accepted her. A tortle introduced himself. A she-devil halfling lied through her teeth. To herself.

Unfaithful peddled money.

Selene fought for the right of a soldier to be remembered.

Things had come to a head.

A mountain-side rest: she accepted a heroic Inspiration (“Okay, thank you.”).

Then she walked to a wall of white. Her prayers had answered. She recorded: “The white wall has spoken”.

At the ruin, she warned the party (“this place is not safe”) and exited—“Turn around, push the button and go out.”

Once or twice she played with the door and their feelings. These feelings were made of amethyst, clatter, fear, hate and hunger. They were false. They were true.

They needlessly fought constructs obviously put there as guardians by an ancient civilization that had self destructed. Obviously.

She avoided danger, and focused on the severed head. Linear thinking and narrative bursts were lies to her.

After stepping out of the cave of doom she felt bad and turned around, casting Faerie Fire into the room granting advantage on the constructs.

Selene stepped in to cure a wound. The good cleric was one she could trust. Perhaps.

Then she waited it out: “Just wait here and see what happens.”

She was not going to get into further trouble.

Dialogue

Selene: Early summer. Glade. Quiet. She watches the temple of the Huntress and ignores the town’s noise.

Ancestor: The herd celebrates. She waits. Sensible. Predators waste no breath.

Selene: The ground moves. Trees shiver. She drops, not hurt. Not normal here.

Ancestor: A continent once died. The land remembers how.

Selene: Lanterns and garlands mean nothing after the tremor. She heads toward the damage with the others. Not friends. Proximity.

Ancestor: Pack forms whether named or not—bard, cleric, tortle, duergar, dragon-blood. Utility first, names later.

Selene: A crier talks coin. A mayor talks coin. One hundred gold is enough truth for today.

Ancestor: Bait taken. Good. Hunger moves feet.

Selene: Camp near the scar. Night is clear. She takes the short rest the world offers.

Ancestor: Sleep light. Answers come with daylight. Also teeth.

Selene: Morning: forest gone to rubble. A white wall in the waste. Not marble, brighter. Old lines. Geometric. Wrong for this age.

Ancestor: Hervéan work. Bones of a vanished hand. Power sleeps inside.

Selene: Door found. Buried. Cleared. Touch. Grind. Open.

Ancestor: Living place. Veins of light. The old things still breathe.

Selene: Room. Pedestal. Blue orb. Then guardians wake—stone and legs. She steps out, marks them with violet fire. Simple math: make them easy to hit.

Ancestor: Prey outlined. Teeth encouraged.

Selene: The fighting is close and ugly. Stone breaks slow. People don’t. She heals when it counts. That’s the job.

Ancestor: Mercy is efficient when it keeps blades moving.

Selene: After: silence, grit, wires in rock like gold threads. Too deep to pry. Not today.

Ancestor: The hoard is knowledge first. Coin later.

Selene: Truths: The land shook. A wall woke. Old language refused to be read. Things crawled out to test the living. We passed—barely.

Ancestor: Next truth: doors open two ways. Choose the right one.

Selene’s Record: Arendelle Tremor

Date: three days before or after the Feast of Mielikki
Location: Arendelle, mountain verge, northern Galeen continent
Weather: early summer, clear. Ground uneasy.
Event: seismic disturbance → revealed Hervaeian ruin (“white wall”).
Reward offered: 100 gp by mayor. Bait accepted.

Tarot Survey: The Companions

Garwin — The Hermit (reversed)
Isolation pretending to be wisdom.
He mistakes noise for study. Burrows downward; will dig until the ground collapses.
Still, the first to move when purpose is clear. Stone made flesh.

Liblet — Page of Pentacles (reversed)
Talent chasing its own tail.
Charming, lying, believing each lie long enough to make it true.
She-devil halfling: a curse dressed as cheer. Soul like copper—soft, bright, cheap.
Useful when distraction is needed.

Finbar — Seven of Swords (reversed)
Thief of peace caught mid-act.
Calls his deceit “faith.” Still believes light can be bartered.
A good man if goodness were an act of will, not habit.

Terrence — Page of Swords
Question given shell and claws.
Moves slow until struck, then decisive. The only honest one here.
His calm is armor; inside, a storm hums like stored lightning.

Elf (unnamed) — Knight of Cups (reversed)
Dreamer out of tune.
Sees prophecy in puddles. Likely to drown in one.
Pretty, probably doomed. The kind bards forget to finish songs about.

Selene — King of Rods
Fire constrained, bored, waiting.
Leadership mistaken for distance.
The others see stillness; I feel containment. They will burn. I will watch.

Observations

Tremor localized to Hervaeian strata.

White wall visible 400 m from camp; geometric glyphs; residual magic signature (blue-green, humming).

Organic veins under rock: active mana channels, responsive to touch.

Constructs within appear sentient but bound. Guardians, not aggressors.

Companions reacted predictably: dwarf fought, cleric prayed, pretend-bard screamed, tortle intervened. I exited, marked targets with Faerie Fire (violet).

Outcome: neutralized threat; minor injuries.

Artifact: blue orb, inert but resonant.

Entry recorded: “The white wall has spoken.”

Addendum: Casualties

One young soldier, decapitated.
I performed rites.
“Rest in peace, young man. Your duty was shekən. The white wall has spoken.”
(Word “shekən”: Hervaeian root—means both “fulfilled” and “exhausted.”)

Assessment

Linear thinking and narrative bursts are lies.
The others need story to live inside.
I need the silence between stories.

Tomorrow: return to the Temple of the Huntress.
Recalibrate faith. Artemis, not Mielikki.
Same goddess. Different name.
Names are the only walls that still stand.

Postscript —

Invocation — “Cloudening Moon”

A whirling scorpion.

> Δέδυκε μέν ἀ σελάννα καί Πληϊάδες,
μέσαι δὲ νύκτες, πάρα δ’ ἔρχετ’ ὥρα,
ἔγω δὲ μόνα κατεύδω.
(“The moon has set, and the Pleiades;
Midnight is gone, and time passes —
Yet I lie alone.” – Sappho, Fragment 168B)

GEORG GORITZ MØRK CHRISTIANSEN

The Three Tyrants at Judgment

To California, and the disunited states

Commentary on the Triad

This triad binds together matter, memory, and martyrdom — three faces of resistance across time.

I. Georg Goritz Mørk Christiansen (1943) — The Martyr.
The young Danish student who faced execution with philosophical calm embodies the purity of conscience tested by tyranny. His letters, lucid and tender, transmute fear into clarity: he stands as the iron of human resolve, alloyed with compassion. He is history’s living element — ferrum vivum.

II. The Three Tyrants at Judgment (2025) — The Tribunal.
Set in a ruined forum, it recalls Rome’s broken stones and America’s trembling republic. Anna, Caligula, and the Iron form a symbolic trinity — truth, power, and remembrance. The tyrants stand not before men, but before the enduring tribunal of history itself. Ferrum memor: the iron remembers when nations forget.

III. To California, and the disunited states (2025) — The Element.
Echoing Primo Levi’s Iron, this meditation turns from Europe’s night to America’s disunity. In Levi’s lab, “Mother-Matter” tested the moral mettle of young chemists amid the fumes of fascism. Here, the same element — iron — becomes America’s test of spirit: can conscience withstand corrosion? The inverted bust of Caligula presides as warning, and as mirror.

Together, these works form a cycle of remembrance —

Christiansen: the personal face of courage.

Caligula: the systemic face of tyranny.

Levi: the elemental face of endurance.

Each asks the same question in a different register:

When the empire darkens and the world forgets, what remembers?
The answer, across time and metal, remains the same: Ferrum memor.

A·D·X·K·NOV·AN·MMDCCLXXVIII·A·V·C

Per Ione Messina

Selene, the Cloudening Moon

Human–Dragonborn Bard (College of Spirits)
Age 60 · Neutral Good · Voice of the Remembered

Once the younger sister of the stormborn Astra, Selene survived what her sister could not. Where Astra burned bright and fast, Selene endured — her fire turned inward, her music made of echoes and memory. Half human and half dragon, she now wanders a world unraveling, carrying her sister’s sapphire at her throat and a book of songs no one remembers how to sing.

Her bardic gift is not simple performance. When Selene sings, forgotten spirits stir; when she stops, silence itself seems to listen. Her voice is said to mend the edges of dreams, or sometimes tear them wider. She travels light, speaks little, and writes by moonlight in a tongue half her own and half the dead’s.

Those who meet her remember the stillness more than the words — a feeling that someone was listening to the world itself breathe.

“I’m Selene — once a singer, now mostly an echo.
My sister Astra was the storm; I’m what’s left when the thunder fades.
I travel with her sapphire and a few songs the world forgot.
If I seem quiet, it’s only because I’m listening — the sky has been trying to speak again.”

Selene is a Bard (d8 Hit Die), with Constitution 14 (+2 modifier).

At Level 1, hit points are:

8 (base from Bard) + 2 (Con modifier) = 10 hp

Core Stats Summary

Attribute Score Modifier

Strength 8 −1
Dexterity 13 +1
Constitution 14 +2
Intelligence 10 +0
Wisdom 15 +2
Charisma 20 +5

HP: 10 (8 + 2 Con)
AC: 13 (Leather Armor + Dex)
Proficiency Bonus: +2
Spell Save DC: 15 (8 + 2 + 5)
Spell Attack Bonus: +7
Skills: Performance (E), Insight (E), Persuasion, Perception, Arcana, History

Selene at this stage is already preternaturally gifted: her voice and presence are her defense, not her blade

Cantrips: Vicious Mockery, Minor Illusion, Message
1st-Level Spells Known (4):
• Cure Wounds — healing through harmonic resonance.
• Faerie Fire — moonlight revealing truth.
• Dissonant Whispers — the first stirring of the “Verse of Boring.”
• Detect Magic — tuning into the world’s faint unraveling hum.

Narrative Position – The First Light after Loss

Again at Level 1 after partial massive memory loss, Selene has only just stepped beyond the ashes of her sister’s storm. She is:

In exile from her past life. The bard who once sang in courts now sings to ruins and forgotten graves.

Haunted. Astra’s sapphire hums faintly, but its full resonance lies dormant.

Drawn to the unraveling. She senses the world’s sickness — whispers under moonlight that sound too much like memory.

Rooted in silence. Her songs are sparse, half-prayer, half-warning; when she stops, the world seems to hush in answer.

Psychological and Emotional State

Loss: Astra’s death is fresh; Selene still half expects her sister’s voice to answer.

Purpose: Unclear — she travels because standing still feels like dying again.

Gift or curse: Her music touches spirits; she’s not sure whether she’s invoking them or they’re invoking her.

Manner: Gentle, wry, composed on the surface — the still eye of an unseen storm.

For Thomas Paine

Periodic Table , Primo Levi

Page 40.

I R O N

Night lay beyond the walls of the Chemical Institute, the night of Europe: Chamberlain had returned from Munich duped, Hitler had marched into Prague without firing a shot, Franco had subdued Barcelona and was ensconced in Madrid. Fascist Italy, the small-time pirate, had occupied Albania, and the premonition of imminent catastrophe condensed like grumous dew in the houses and streets, in wary conversations and dozing consciences. But the night did not penetrate those thick walls; Fascist censorship itself, the regime’s masterwork, kept us shut off from the world, in a white, anesthetized limbo. About thirty of us had managed to surmount the harsh barrier of the first exams and had been admitted to the second year’s Qualitative Analysis
  laboratory. We had entered that enormous, dark, smoky hall like someone who, coming into the House of the Lord, reflects on each of his steps. The previous lab, where I had tackled zinc, seemed an infantile exercise to us now, similar to when as children we had played at cooking: something, by hook or crook, in one way or another, always came of it, perhaps too little, perhaps not very pure, but you really had to be a hopeless case or pigheaded not to get magnesium sulfate from magnesite, or potassium bromide from bromine. Not here: here the affair had turned serious, the confronta- tion with Mother-Matter, our hostile mother, was tougher and closer. At two in the afternoon, Professor D., with his ascetic and distracted air, handed each of us precisely one gram of a certain powder: by the next day we had to complete the qualitative analysis, that is, report what metals and non-metals it contained. Report in writing, like a police report, only yes and no, because doubts and hesitations were not admissible: it was each time a choice, a deliberation, a mature and responsible undertaking, for which Fascism had not prepared us, and from which emanated a good smell, dry and clean. Some elements, such as iron and copper, were easy and direct, incapable of concealment; others, such as bismuth and cadmium, were deceptive and elusive. There was a method, a toilsome, ageold plan for systematic research, a kind of combined steamroller and fine-toothed comb which nothing (in theory) could escape, but I preferred to invent each time a new road, with swift, extemporaneous forays, as in a war of movement, instead of the deadly grind of a war of position. Sublimate mercury into droplets, transform sodium into chloride, and identify it as trough-shaped chips under my microscope. One way or another, here the relationship with Matter changed, became dialectical: it was fencing, a face-to-face match. Two unequal opponents: on one side, putting the questions, the unfledged, unarmed chemist, at his elbow the textbook by Autenrieth as his sole ally (because D., often called to help out in difficult cases, maintained a scrupulous neutrality, refused to give an opinion: a wise attitude, since whoever opens his mouth can put his foot in it, and professors are not supposed to do that); on the other side, responding with enigmas, stood Matter, with her sly passivity, ancient as the All and portentously rich in deceptions, as solemn and subtle as the Sphinx. I was just beginning to read German words and was enchanted by the word Urstoff (which means “element”: literally, “primal sub- stance”) and by the prefix Ur which appeared in it and which in fact expresses ancient origin, remote distance in space and time. In this place, too, nobody wasted many words teaching us how to protect ourselves from acids, caustics, fires, and explo- sions; it appeared that the Institute’s rough and ready morality counted on the process of natural selection to pick out those among us most qualified for physical and professional survival. There were few ventilation hoods; each student, following his text’s prescriptions, in the course of systematic analysis, consci- entiously let loose into the air a good dose of hydrochloric acid and ammonia, so that a dense, hoary mist of ammonium chloride stagnated permanently in the lab, depositing minute scintillating crystals on the windowpanes. Into the hydrogen sulfide room with its murderous atmosphere withdrew couples seeking privacy and a few lone wolves to eat their snacks. Through the murk and in the busy silence, we heard a Piedmontese voice say: “Nuntio vobis gaudium magnum. Habemus ferrum.” “I announce to you a great joy. We have iron.” It was March 1939, and a few days earlier an almost identical solemn announcement (“Habemus Papam”) had closed the conclave that had raised to Peter’s Throne Cardinal Eugenio Pacelli, in whom many put their hopes, since one must after all put one’s hope in someone or something. The blasphemous announcement came from Sandro, the quiet one. In our midst, Sandro was a loner. He was a boy of medium height, thin but muscular, who never wore an overcoat, even on the coldest days. He came to class in worn corduroy knickers, knee socks made of homespun wool and sometimes a short black cape which made me think of the Tuscan poet Renato…

Refrain (spoken or sung softly)
Taught without meaning, again and again —
We name the colours, forget the pain.

I. The Flag of the Fields
Green, white, and red once dreamed of bread,
of workers freed from king and creed,
a flag that spoke of fields instead
of crowns and swords and noble need.

Taught without meaning, again and again —
We name the colours, forget the pain.

II. Guido Fawkes (1570–1606)
Guido Fawkes, born 1570,
was racked in chains beneath the floor;
his body torn for what he planned—
to strike the crown, to end the war.

They burned his name into the night,
and made his ashes holiday;
they light the sky, but never tell
whose body paid for that display.

Taught without meaning, again and again —
We light the fireworks, forget the men.

III. William Wallace (1270–1305)
William Wallace, 1270 born,
was dragged through London’s iron rain;
they broke his limbs to teach the law,
then scattered him by gate and chain.

Now children trace the Union’s cross,
and cheer the tales of crown and land;
they do not hear the cry he gave,
or feel the rope on freedom’s hand.

Taught without meaning, again and again —
We wave the banners, forget the chain.

IV. Thomas Paine (1737–1809)
Thomas Paine, of Norfolk born,
took pen against the crown of men;
Common Sense became his sword,
and liberty his citizen.

Thirteen stripes in red and white,
rose for a world that would not bow;
but stars can fade to painted signs
when none recall the vow.

Taught without meaning, again and again —
We pledge allegiance, forget the pain.

V. The Lesson
So teachers hang the flags on walls,
and speak of courage, not of cost;
they praise the kings, the saints, the wars—
and never ask what freedom lost.

Guido’s fire, William’s chain,
Thomas’s bright ink on history’s page—
they gave their flesh, their words, their names,
and we were taught to turn the page.

Final Refrain (stronger, slower)
Taught without meaning, again and again —
We name the colours, forget the pain.
Taught without meaning, again and again —
Until we teach what freedom meant then.

Commentary

The poem’s purpose

This poem is a meditation on how nations turn pain into pageantry, and how children are often taught to revere symbols whose histories they are never invited to understand.
It juxtaposes three moments of rebellion — Guy (Guido) Fawkes (1605), William Wallace (1305), and Thomas Paine (1776) — to trace a single lineage of resistance to hereditary power and state violence.

Each figure stands for a different kind of dissent:

Fawkes — punished by torture and death, remembered only as a villain or spectacle, his political motives flattened into a ritual of fireworks and obedience.

Wallace — executed publicly as a traitor, his body divided to warn others, yet later reabsorbed by empire as a symbol of “unity” rather than defiance.

Paine — a writer who used words rather than weapons, whose vision of liberty under reason and equality shaped the American Revolution — and yet, even his ideas have been domesticated into patriotic ritual.

By repeating the refrain “Taught without meaning, again and again,” the poem insists that history, in schools and in public life, is not neutral — it is curated forgetting. The refrain becomes a ritual undoing of that ritual: a call to remember the cost behind every colour and every flag.

The flags and their meanings

The first flag (green, white, red, with a wreath and quartered crosses)

This is the flag of the English People’s Republic — a speculative or symbolic banner imagined by anti-monarchists and republicans.

Green represents the land, labour, and renewal — the commons reclaimed from enclosure.

White stands for equality and peace between peoples.

Red evokes both the blood of the oppressed and the courage of revolt.

The wheat wreath signifies sustenance and work, the dignity of feeding oneself rather than serving a master.

The quartered shield bears crosses of England, Scotland, Ireland, and Wales — but they are no longer under a crown. They are held instead in the unity of the republic, bound by grain, not empire.

In the poem’s opening lines —

Green, white, and red once dreamed of bread,
of workers freed from king and creed,
the flag becomes an emblem of a different Britain — one that might have been and could still be, one built not on rule but on shared labour.

The second flag (thirteen stars and stripes)

The Betsy Ross flag — the first flag of the United States (1776–77).
Originally a symbol of liberation from monarchy, it is now a paradox: a revolutionary emblem that later flew over empire.
In the poem, the stanza about Thomas Paine (1737–1809) reminds us that the American Revolution was first a revolt of ideas — the conviction that freedom is born from reason, not lineage.

But the poem’s final lines about this flag —

Yet even there the children learn
the flag, not hunger, truth, or pain
— reveal how even rebellion can harden into myth. The flag once stood for emancipation; now it often stands for power itself.

Cinnamon’s painting

Cinnamon’s painting — a child’s vision using those same colours and symbols — becomes the heart of the poem’s moral.
Where adults teach flags as abstractions of loyalty, a child paints them as shapes of feeling: colour without propaganda, form without coercion.

Her work reclaims the right to look — to re-see — before the meanings are imposed.
In the context of the poem, Cinnamon’s act of painting the flag is the antidote to the refrain “Taught without meaning.”
Where the system teaches forgetting, the child reimagines.
Where history flattens complexity, the child restores ambiguity and empathy.

Cinnamon’s use of green, white, and red echoes the idea of life, balance, and courage — but stripped of state ideology. In her painting, those colours are no longer a regimented banner; they are living pigments, a field of imagination.
If the poem mourns the loss of meaning, her art rebuilds it — intuitively, freely, outside the grammar of indoctrination.

4. The central paradox

The poem does not glorify violence or rebellion.
It asks: Why are the violent acts of states celebrated, while the rebels who challenged them are vilified or sanitized?
By naming dates, it situates each act of suppression in time, then asks how time itself was manipulated to make those acts appear inevitable, righteous, or distant.

The final refrain —

Taught without meaning, again and again —
Until we teach what freedom meant then.
— offers a simple ethical task: not to erase flags, but to explain them truthfully; not to reject symbols, but to ensure children know whose voices were silenced behind them.

5. In Cinnamon’s name

Cinnamon’s presence in this work — as daughter, painter, learner — gives the poem its emotional grounding.
It is written not to turn her against her peers or teachers, but to give her the language of awareness: that every story has another side, every celebration has a cost, and every colour on a flag once belonged to someone’s body, someone’s field, someone’s dream.

Where the system teaches uniformity, Cinnamon’s act of questioning restores the oldest human right — to see clearly, and to choose what the colours mean.

Velathri (Elara’s Vision)

The sound comes first — a breath through stone, low and slow, as if the earth itself is remembering how to inhale.
Then a child.

He’s running uphill through dust the color of rusted gold.
His feet slap against the packed clay; the air shivers with heat.
Olive trees lean toward him, their silver leaves flickering like the edges of a dream.
I can smell the forge — copper and sweat, charcoal and rainwater.

Someone calls his name — Larthu — and he turns, laughing.
He can’t be more than twelve.
His hands are black with soot, his hair wild.
Behind him, the walls of Velathri rise in terraces, roofs glowing red in the late light.

He’s carrying something small, bright: a mirror, newly cast.
He stops to watch the sun in it, and for a heartbeat the reflection blinds me —
sky above, sky below.
He blinks, and both disappear.

I can hear his mother’s voice.
She’s kneeling in a courtyard, gutting a lamb for augury, the smoke blue, the air wet with life.
Her words move like a song half-forgotten:

“We listen to what the ground doesn’t say.”

The same words my mother once said to me.
The echo folds across two thousand years and lands exactly where my pulse is.

The boy looks up — straight at me.
He shouldn’t be able to see me, but he does.
The pupils widen; the forge-light catches in his eyes.

“Who are you?” I try to ask, but my voice doesn’t reach him.
The air between us turns liquid, trembling, and suddenly his mouth is moving, speaking—

mi Larth Velthurna, clan Velθa.
ati thu mi cutha, methlum Rasna.
thesan thui,
aisar ameθ.

śuthinaś cel,
zilath mi avil,
tinscvil larθas.

acil θuna,
θuric sleθ.
avilsuś alpan,
thui mi.

I am Larth of Velathri, born of the house of Veltha.
My mother shows me the secret places, land of the Etruscans.
The dawn is here,
the gods remain.

In the tomb’s shadow,
I grow one year,
child of Tin’s breath.

Take me,
carry the word.
Through years I will rise,
through you.

The syllables vibrate through her like thunder underwater.
Elara’s mouth moves, repeating them without understanding.
Each sound tastes of iron, ash, honey.
The vision tilts — walls collapsing into red light —
and then the child is gone,
only the echo of his name burning behind her teeth:

Larth.

The Stone

It’s ridiculous how quickly mud can feel intimate.
You spend days fighting it, then one touch and you’re holding a secret.

I brushed the surface with my fingertips.
Something solid, smooth beneath the grit.
I switched to the trowel, careful, coaxing the layer back grain by grain.
The rain had made the clay soft as skin; it peeled away in ribbons.

A curve.
Then an angle.
Then—
a letter.

D.

I sat back on my heels, breath fogging the beam of my head-torch.
The line was deep, hand-cut, no tool chatter.
Another scrape, another letter.

M.

D M.
Dis Manibus.
The formula for the dead.

I should’ve called the team, logged the context, taken a photograph.
Instead I kept brushing.
It felt wrong to stop.
Like pausing mid-heartbeat.

The red pigment emerged next, faint but definite.
Not paint—iron oxide, maybe cinnabar.
Old blood color.
Whoever carved this wanted it to bleed.

More words surfaced in sequence, as if the earth were exhaling them:

LARTH LEG IX HISP.

I whispered it aloud, the way you test a language against your own mouth.
It tasted metallic.

The beam of my torch wavered; the generator groaned.
The letters seemed to drink the light.
They weren’t just inscribed—they were cut through.
Channels, not lines.

I traced one with my glove and felt warmth.
Not body heat—something older, stored, like the memory of sunlight in stone.

For a second, everything went still.
No wind.
No generator.
No me.

Then sound came back in pieces:
the flap of canvas,
a drop hitting water,
the low electric hum that shouldn’t have been there.

I crouched closer, my breath syncing to the vibration.
It felt… rhythmic.
Almost human.

I pressed my palm flat on the inscription.

The world pivoted.

The light from my torch stretched thin, bending toward the ground.
A pressure rose through my arm—slow, deliberate, like something recognizing its own name being spoken after a very long time.

In my head, or maybe in the soil, a voice moved—
not words yet, just the outline of a word.

Velathri.

I knew it wasn’t Latin.
I didn’t know how I knew.

My palm stung. I pulled it back, and the hum stopped.
Silence folded in, heavy as water.

I stared at the letters until they blurred.
Rain started again, soft, unhurried.

I whispered,
“I hear you.”

The wind carried the words away,
and somewhere beneath me,
the wall breathed back.

Night at Magna

The rain stopped just after nine.
You could hear the last drops falling off the scaffold poles — that metallic ping that sounds like time counting itself down.

The generator was still running outside, the tent canvas moving with each breath of wind. The smell of damp nylon and instant noodles, wet wool, wet everything.

I was supposed to be cataloguing finds — a few bits of coarseware, two nails, the base of a glass unguent bottle — but my notes had turned to mud along the edges, and my handwriting looked like someone else’s.

Everyone else was asleep or pretending to be. We’d all promised to meet early for core sampling, but promises at digs are weather-dependent.

I poured a little whisky into my enamel mug. Not much, just enough to warm my throat.
For a moment, I thought about calling my father — it was his birthday — but the signal up here dies after dark, as if the land itself decides when it’s done speaking.

I opened my laptop anyway.
The cursor blinked in an empty document titled Magna Field Notes – Day 19.
I stared at it until the generator coughed and the light dimmed.

Day 19.
We uncovered nothing new.
The wall holds its tongue.

I typed that and stopped.

Outside, the wind shifted, carrying that strange mineral smell again — the one that clings to soil disturbed for the first time in centuries.
It’s not unpleasant, just raw. Iron, clay, and something faintly electric.

I shut the laptop, pulled my boots back on, and stepped outside.

The sky was clearing, thin stars behind a scrim of cloud.
The trench lamps glowed sodium-yellow against the black mud, a small fortress of light on the edge of an endless moor.

I walked down to the excavation edge. My breath came in steam. The generator’s hum sank into the ground, blending with something lower, older — the sub-bass of water under stone.

Maybe that’s all history is: a kind of sound trapped in matter, waiting for the right frequency to shake it loose.

I crouched by the trench again. Ran my glove along the compacted soil, feeling the fine grit, the cold pulse of buried air.
I don’t know why I did it — maybe habit, maybe longing — but I said quietly,
“Alright, then. Speak.”

It wasn’t defiance. It wasn’t belief.
Just a sentence spoken into fog.

The wind answered first, moving through the plastic sheeting like breath under cloth.
Then the low hum again, almost polite.

I waited. Nothing.

But as I turned to leave, the ground gave a little under my heel — a shallow depression, maybe from last week’s rain. The light caught a faint curve beneath the mud, too regular to be stone.

A letter? A mark?
No — probably nothing.

Still, I knelt.

The soil there was warmer.